i hate making up titles, the meaning comes out in the works
Sunday, June 03, 2012
so, as i explained to a friend just abit earlier in the day, i iam going to start walking again. i used to walk all the time (and smoke and drink, and....do all the things that twenty year olds do....) and spending four years in college carrying a twenty plus pound backpack and walking miles upon miles everyday PROBABLY had something to do with me keeping off the wieght even though i have a significiantly sized sweet tooth.
Honestly, i have done ....okay....these last couple days, tracking my food, counting my calories (or at least being aware of how many calories i have taken in, even though i have still broken the 1500 calorie limit every day) but i have been AT LEAST ---paying attention. I am little bit more aware of what i AM eating and in the works I have figured out the whole ---hey, stupid, you used to walk ALL THE TIME bit and so....i gotta start walking again.
I know, i am an infamous failure. I get what southerners like to call "wild hairs" and i decide i am going to do something and ....it lasts for three days, my schedule gets busy, i make up excuses, things go awry, it snows in june, and POOF plan ruined i give up. (i hate that i am like that but it is the truth, no wonder my "friends" are so surprised i have been in relAtionship for more than five years now, feels like eternity.....)
i am also....distractable.
so, back to the point. I am going to start walking and in two weeks i am going to start jogging, and then i will start running, and then, maybe i will finally get to doing those walks/runs, and marathons for charity that i have wanted to do, and MAYBE i will lose some weight, or at least lose fat, in the process, hopefully i will.
This. This, MASTER, plan of mine comes with the hopeful goals of, losing some weight, gaining some confidence, feeling and looking better, and feeling better about how i look. AND accomplishing some of what i can't seem to do with my college degree, and doing goo things for other people. I will try to not get myself so worked up that i bound myself for failure, but i want to complete my plans and hopefully i can.