I done a bad, bad thing.
Friday, June 01, 2012
Sparkfriends, I have a confession to make. I slipped into old habits last night, HARD. I had an entire box of macaroni and cheese to myself - with an added handful of shredded cheese while I was making it. I haven’t even logged it yet because I know it’s going to be UGLY.
I got home from work and my boyfriend had already eaten dinner before going out for a ride on his motorcycle. I had worked through my lunch and only had a trail mix bar. I was feeling yucky and hungry but not really like cooking, esp for just me. My boyfriend suggested a can of soup. I wanted pizza. He suggested soup again. I said I didn’t want soup. He said if I wanted comfort then I should just go ahead and make my mac and cheese, because then I could have a salad with it, and have leftovers. I made the salad and ate one serving of mac and cheese. Then I took the second bowl upstairs with me while I played Diablo III. I ate the last serving at 10:30 at night when I was still feeling horrible (headache, sinuses) and couldn’t get to sleep. In addition, I ate 3 packs of Welch’s Fruit Snacks. And of course, eating mac and cheese was the worst thing I could do for my sinuses because of the dairy. But I just did not care. I had no willpower at all yesterday.
And I’m telling you all about it so I don’t do it again. It was different than when I go out to eat on the weekend and I’m planning to eat extra calories. This was definitely emotional eating, and I’m not even sure what I was emotional about. It is my TOM, but that shouldn’t be an excuse. My life is good and I am happy, I have no idea what caused this, which concerns me.
And now it’s time to pay the piper, I mean the calorie counter, and take a look at the damage.
*eesh - Over 2200*