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I done a bad, bad thing.

Friday, June 01, 2012

Sparkfriends, I have a confession to make. I slipped into old habits last night, HARD. I had an entire box of macaroni and cheese to myself - with an added handful of shredded cheese while I was making it. I haven’t even logged it yet because I know it’s going to be UGLY.

I got home from work and my boyfriend had already eaten dinner before going out for a ride on his motorcycle. I had worked through my lunch and only had a trail mix bar. I was feeling yucky and hungry but not really like cooking, esp for just me. My boyfriend suggested a can of soup. I wanted pizza. He suggested soup again. I said I didn’t want soup. He said if I wanted comfort then I should just go ahead and make my mac and cheese, because then I could have a salad with it, and have leftovers. I made the salad and ate one serving of mac and cheese. Then I took the second bowl upstairs with me while I played Diablo III. I ate the last serving at 10:30 at night when I was still feeling horrible (headache, sinuses) and couldn’t get to sleep. In addition, I ate 3 packs of Welch’s Fruit Snacks. And of course, eating mac and cheese was the worst thing I could do for my sinuses because of the dairy. But I just did not care. I had no willpower at all yesterday.

And I’m telling you all about it so I don’t do it again. It was different than when I go out to eat on the weekend and I’m planning to eat extra calories. This was definitely emotional eating, and I’m not even sure what I was emotional about. It is my TOM, but that shouldn’t be an excuse. My life is good and I am happy, I have no idea what caused this, which concerns me.

And now it’s time to pay the piper, I mean the calorie counter, and take a look at the damage.

*eesh - Over 2200* emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • ZANNBEE
    Great job fessing up. Tomorrow is a brand new day.
    2315 days ago
  • BECKYB73
    I've done this more times than I can count...usually though, I was playing WoW (I haven't for 4 years now) but I totally know where you're coming from. Just figure you're done with that now and move on!!

    2328 days ago
  • K-GETTING-FIT
    (((hugs))) Hope you are having a better day. I have been there. BF sounds like mine. He tries to steer me away, but sometimes there is just no stopping me.
    Here's to new days:)
    2329 days ago
  • ROLLSTAR
    I have a weakness for mac and cheese, also!!! I've been getting the Annie's brand... fewer calories per serving and only 2.5 servings in a box. I can't remember the exact number, but it's under 300 calories.

    But you'll bounce back from this and your willpower will be stronger for next time!!
    2330 days ago
  • MEH50BEWELL
    Yep - you done a bad thing. Yep - you feel bad about it. But the biggest Yep is - you blogged about it - you owned up to it. You will be aware of your calories and try to do better this weekend. You will do great!!
    2330 days ago
  • POOKASLUAGH
    I had a day like that the other day. I was doing fine, then mid-afternoon, I suddenly got struck with a binge. Ended up eating, in addition to the cottage cheese i planned for my snack, two servings of crackers and four granola bars before i could get myself to stop, and even then I was almost shaking with hunger-that-wasn't-really-hunger still. Ugh. I hate days like that! They happen to us all.
    2330 days ago
  • SUZIEMAH1
    Don't let it get to you too much...these kinds of things happen. The good thing is that you've acknowledged it and in the future will try to make better food choices. I can totally relate with emotional eating, as I've strugged with it for a very long time. Today is a new day. ....Just take it one day at a time. emoticon
    2330 days ago
  • GOLOPTIOUS
    We all do it sometimes. The trick is to not let it continue into the next meal or the next day or the next week or the next month. (Of course, I'm not one to talk as I practically binged for two weeks until Yoda got upset with me and brought me back!)

    The important thing is that you realized what you did, you owned up to it, and you'll be vigilant for signs of another weak moment.

    Also, can I just mention that I'm super-jealous that you're playing D3?? I play WoW and bought D3 without realizing that my computer stinks and isn't good enough for D3. Soon I will be playing, though!
    2330 days ago
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