Frustrations of success
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Went to the closet this morning having a hard time choosing... the smallest pants I own are in the dirty hamper, I tried on 3 others, and all of them didn't fit well. Happy to say they were too big, but still I didn't feel right. I found the best of the bunch and went to shirts. My selection there has been dwindling down also. I could wear the bigger stuff but now that my body is more flattering I want to be able to show it off a little with better fitting cloths. Some stuff just looks sloppy. So between tops and bottoms getting dressed was frustrating.
I had lunch with my husband and he told me to treat myself to some new stuff. My daughter did so well while I shopped, I'm so proud of her. I actually had fun shopping. Which hasn't been the case in the past.
I did two things during my shopping trip that I have NEVER done before. I tried on a dress, I havnt worn a dress since I got married 6 years ago... And it looked amazing on me. Which then lead me to trying on about 7 others. I txt my husband with a picture of my favorite one and he told me I should buy it. I was going back and forth, I think I could have fit into the next size down but they didn't have one. I didn't want to spend money on something that will look big and sloppy on me in a few months while I continue to loose weight. So... I didn't buy it. And thinking back I should have. My husband was disappointed I didn't. I'm not used to him being excited about me getting new cloths and complimenting me.
The second thing I did that I never do, I tried on shorts that are above the knee... Ever since high school, I have always worn capris I've been embarrassed about my knees, so I cover them up. Today, I bought a pair of shorts that are cute above the knee. Trying to be less self conscious. My knees felt so nekid but they didn't look too bad on me. I also walked away with a few tshirts and a tank top. Also... A first for me is having a medium be a little to big, and having to go get a small.... A SMALL!!!
So besides feeling guilty over spending money, it was a good trip. And now I have more things that fit.