A Random Blog For A Random Day
Thursday, May 31, 2012
(Please be aware that I am writing this at midnight, so this is actually the blog for Wednesday the 30th.)
Today was a very odd day. It involved a lot of running around driving for people, running errands, but it all began with a very odd interview. I interviewed for another job at a local hospital and it was the strangest interview I have ever been to (and I have been to a lot of interviews)! The woman who was actually interviewing me asked me all of three questions and spent maybe five minutes with me and had me sit for over twenty minutes with another lady and listen to what they do there, then she just said they would keep me in mind and that was it. Much praying to be done. Not sure, especially since she didn't seem thrilled with the idea that I still had to complete my education (something that I am unwilling to budge on), even though I would be more than willing to fit my classes around work.
Sometimes, in life, you have to hold on to the little things, like a delicious lunch or dinner, perfectly ripe bananas, a good book, soft and strong toilet paper, nail clippers, pajamas, a good TV show, hot men in good TV shows, the occasional moment when a bird is just sitting there staring at you like you are crazy standing at the window staring at it, a long rain storm, aloe vera, the really buttery kernels at the bottom of the bowl of popcorn, fans, low rise socks, etc. The reality is that sometimes life is just plain rough and you have to cling like crazy to the love of God and all the little things that help you get through.
I have so many stretch marks all over my body. Sometimes they bother me, sometimes they don't. Even when I get smaller I know that they won't go away, so I figure I might as well accept my tiger stripes and learn to love them, not always easy, but I think they will make fine battle scars. The point is that life goes on.
Sometimes I wonder what I look like to other people. Not necessarily from a point of "THEY HAVE TO THINK I AM BEAUTIFUL!!", more from a point of genuinely wondering what other people see when they look at me and how that matches up to what I see when I look at myself. Just kind of funny to think about. Or maybe I am just really tired.
I totally went overboard with my eating today. I got stressed out with some stuff that was going on and I started in with the whole "I don't really care" attitude and, of course, that led to me eating pretty far out of my calorie range (though thankfully not binging). Though I did exercise, which is always good. Back on the track as of now and determined to make tomorrow a good day. A day filled with healthful and delicious meals, lots of water, and hours of Michael Westen (I am having a prepare for the new season burn notice marathon! Woo!), so generally lots of yummy.
Sorry this is random, not even sure if it makes sense, but I am exhausted and just felt like rambling. Thanks for listening!!