Dear Silver Spies

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Dear Spies,

I am writing to wish you all luck with the rest of the round. Without me requesting it, I have been moved to floater status. Apparently when you lose your job, are freaking out about it and don't want to share what's going on just yet you get moved. Yes we all have challenges and lots of life things going on at the time, and some are more vocal than others, but honestly up and moving someone like that just isn't right.

I'm sorry that I didn't accept that "going on interviews and not getting them isn't the end of the world" like some of you have passed along to me. It wasn't just that. The job I had been with is no longer available again. I found out with 30 min left of the school year. Talk about a shocker. Here I am unemployed for the 2nd time in my life and I just turned 30. I don't think I should really have to apologize for feeling the way I am. Then I have the issues of my niece fighting for her life and trying to stay positive and upbeat for my family. I have been through a lot in my 30 years, way more than some people have and they are older than me and it being things I would never wish on someone, and I'm doing the best that I can.

I post every other day and do my best to catch up with everyone. I have been on track posting my results and what not as soon as I finish them. I even counted my posts and I know that others are right around the same range I am.

But it is what it is and the decision has been made. I'm not making excuses, I'm stating what has been going on because apparently some think I have not been with it. But apparently I'm doing something right because I have been maintaining through everything. I'm sorry if some of you think this is harsh and take it the wrong way but you can't stop what your heart feels.

Again good luck.

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  • DEE797
    Julie, I'm sorry that things worked out the way they did. I do hope all goes well with your job search. Thoughts and prayers going out to you, your family, and especially your niece. emoticon
    3300 days ago
    Julie, Hugs.
    I'm so sorry that you have been dealt yet another stress! I hope your job search will be short and successful! Take good care of yourself, and if you want to touch base with another "floater" this round, shoot me an email. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep up, could not post, and asked to have my status changed yesterday. Stay in touch!
    3300 days ago
  • TRICIA0623
    Julie - I am so, so sorry you are struggling. Floater status or not - I am here for you!! I hate that you got moved to that & that it is adding to your stress. Please just do your best to focus on caring for yourself. I hope things start looking up very soon.

    Hugs, Tricia
    3300 days ago
    Maggie... I'm just going to answer for Julie... yes she has been posting her weigh in as stated from the beginning of BLC. That isn't why she was moved to floater.

    Julie... I'm still here for you no matter what you need. We can still continue to do our own "BLC" between the two of us. Know that I'm here to vent or whatever you might need. Can't wait to see you this weekend :)
    3300 days ago
    Julie- I wish you the best of luck in your job search and keep your niece in my thoughts. I am sorry you are going through so much. If you ever need to vent please shoot me a sparkmail and we an exchange emails or what not if you like. I have been very lucky in my career as a teacher to never be one of those 20 colleagues a year whose jobs have been cut and have never had to go through searching for a new job so I can't say I know how you feel or that I've been there but I know it must be stressful, sad, and scary. I do wish you the best and will be thinking about you!
    3300 days ago
    I hope things can turn around. Venting is good. I also understand that decisions made can be hurtful when other things in your life are in chaos having a positive place that you felt safe is heavenly. Sorry you feel betrayed. Bless you as I know you don't need any added stress.
    3300 days ago
    I just want to know if you have done your weigh in's as stated from the beginning of BLC and posted it as required?
    3300 days ago
    Dear Julie - I can feel how upset you are. I am sorry about that.Horace Bushnell said:

    "The more difficulties one has to encounter, within and without, the more significant and the higher in inspiration one's life will be."

    Who knows, maybe you need this time out. I trust that you will find your way. There is always a golden thread even in dark circumstances.

    I wish you all the joy and happiness in the world.

    3301 days ago
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