Selfish Mom
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Summer break has begun for my little grandson. He has officially graduated from kindergarten. This means I don't have to go pick him up from school anymore but it also means he arrives every morning for Grammy to tend him.
I'm not much of a morning person however, I made the decision to wake up earlier and get out for my wog before he arrives at 7ish. My daughter called last night to ask if she could drop him off to spend the night so she wouldn't have to drive him in this morning. I've been trying to be as supportive as I can but I pondered having to give up my wog all together and decided it couldn't happen. She first suggested he could go with me. Hahaha. No. Even the princess girl, who's a walker, wouldn't be able to keep up with me. He isn't a walker, much less a jogger, and would whine before we even got started and he's too big to put in a jogging stroller. Well, she seemed rather unhappy when I told her morning exercise is part of who I am these days and I couldn't give it up. I know she runs early in the morning while her kids are still sleeping. She has an arrangement with her neighbor to keep an eye on her house. I don't have that option.
So, anyway, my alarm went off this morning jarring me out of a deep sleep. I fumbled with my new phone, knocking the screen and having to try to get it back so I could turn the alarm off. My husband awakened and started in... Grrr! I got dressed, let the dog out, and started my coffee. My dog chose this morning to wander and I had to go out to find him. Grrrr! My husband got up while I was outside searching and let the dog in. Greeeat! I turned on my ipod and realized hearing blaring music is an assault rather than a motivator. I wore my walking shoes instead of my running shoes. There is a big difference in how they feel. They're heavier and I felt clumsier than usual. Fortunately, I didn't trip and fall and, after a little while, enjoyed myself. I got home with 15 minutes to spare so I poured my first cup of coffee and relaxed.
It isn't easy to put myself before others but I need to this time and I have. Being healthy is a gift to my family and being selfish is the only way it's going to happen.