Giving Up Excuses and Making Headway
Monday, May 28, 2012
Yes, I know it has only been a few days, but I am really excited. First of all, I would just like to say thank you to the lovely sparkers who responded to my last blog and gave me the ideas that I have been putting into practice. I realized that I was making excuses yet again and it really does come down to how badly I want this and what I am be willing to do to get there. I also realized that maybe the same plain old eating plan just wasn't going to cut it for me. I did great during the day and then at night when I didn't have many calories left, I would always blow it and once I went over I just figured "hey, whats another thousand calories, I already ruined this day", now obviously that isn't true, but there it is none the less. I also struggled immensely after work, tiredness and hunger usually led to a "who cares" attitude, thus hello binge! I hated the cycle, but I just kept doing the same thing.
Alright. So what I have started doing is eating a lighter breakfast, lighter lunch, and no early snack, then putting those calories towards having a moderate dinner and then one or two snacks in the evening and the change has been wonderful!!! I don't feel hungry at night and a little snacking doesn't put me over range. I also account for being hungry and tired when I get off of work, so I have a small snack on my break at work (instead of a full meal) and then have a full meal after I get home when I really want it. I have also pushed my calorie range from 1200-1400 up to 1500-1700 which seems to be a much better range for me.
Another realization (one that I actually had a couple of weeks ago, but neglected to mention) was that I had to work with my body as far as exercise. I kept trying to do my usual long workouts, but I rarely had the energy to even face them, let alone complete them and then the crash that followed soon after was debilitating. So I fell back on the one thing I have heard a billion times since I started with SP: ten minutes per day! Ten minutes! Just do ten minutes! So I did. Just ten minutes, ten measly little minutes. Within a week I saw that this was possible for me, I was finally able to be more consistent. So I started increasing the intensity of my little tiny workouts. I used to average a 60 minute stationary bike ride on level 2 and now I average a 10-15 minute ride on level 10 and I am fast closing in on level 11. I vary my workouts frequently, but they now rarely go over 20 minutes and I try to always account for the crash. It is kind of funny, because my muscles are seriously feeling it, I get sore and man oh man do I sweat! Who knew I could do all that in a itty bitty workout! I have even decided to begin training to run again, I am just going to train two days per week and I am going to build REALLY slowly, but I am determined.
I think sometimes you just have to accept what YOU (and only you) have to do. You have to embrace your limitations, respect your body for what it does every moment of every day, and learn to give yourself a break.
I am really determined and life has been a great source of motivation lately. This fall I will be starting back up in school and joining the national honor society, which will involve going to a fancy induction ceremony and walking across a stage. Then next spring I will be completing my last semester and graduating (I will also be turning 25 in February)! Then the next fall I will be moving on to a university to finish out my bachelors degree!! Bah! So much and I know it will all come up and go by so fast! The last thing that I want in the middle of all of this is to be stressing out about my weight. I know that this is going to be a slow road (hopefully a possible road with my thyroid more balanced), but it will be worth it and I know that feeling better and having more confidence will only make everything that is coming up more fun and more exciting!
I am feeling motivated and trying to ride it out, but I know that will not last forever, so I am trying to set myself up for success!!
Here we go!