Today's measerments made me cry (in a good way)

Sunday, May 27, 2012

So today was my weigh in day and I hit 200.4 lbs (from 337). Seeing that nice round number, that heralded entering the 100's soon, inspired me to take my measurements, which I hadn't done in 6 months. Here they are:
4/26/11 6/30/11 11/7/11 5/27/12
Waist: 51" 49.5" 46" 40.5
Hip: ? 57.75 54 46.75
Thigh: 32 31.25 29 25.5
Bust: 55.5 55.5 50 43.5
Neck: ? 16 15.5 14
Upper Arm: 16.5 ? 15.25 13.25

I looked at these numbers and I started to cry. I remember that miserable woman who was in so much pain, so sick, so depressed, so lonely and ashamed... I am so glad I had the surgery, I truly had given up hope that I would ever get here. Sure I would fantasies about being at my goal weight but it never seemed like it could be a reality.

It's so easy to get caught up in negative things (it's almost a year and I'm still 30-40 lbs from my goal, all my loose skin seems to be going to my belly, my boobs are really saggy...). But this gave me a much needed reality check, I am SO much better off then a year ago. I don't hurt all the time, I can run!, I breath and sleep and feel so much better. I don't get as many migraines, I went form a size 26/28 pant to a 16/18, I don't worry about getting stuck in small spaces or braking a chair by sitting in it... the list goes on and on.

I'm still working on reaching my goal but I realized that if I staid at this weight forever a could be happy and feel so very blessed. I still dream of fitting a size 14 or 12 pant and maybe getting a tummy tuck but I could really, truly *LIVE* with myself as I am now, were as before I was really just existing.

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    2211 days ago
    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

    You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You have chosen to succeed.

    Few baby steps complete a long journey

    Writing is progress!!!

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    2212 days ago
  • PATTYR81
    Congrats on your successes!!!

    Your journey inspires me to keep on keepin on. I had a VERY RUDE awakening when they measured my waist at my surgeon consultation 2 wks ago: 51 inches. I'm used to hearing that number of inches in terms of height and never even considered that my waist could be that big!

    Your story gives me hope and encouragement: THANKS for sharing!

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    2212 days ago
    I am so impressed by your food and weight recovery. You are such a great example. You have achieved remarkable results! Entirely terrific. I hope you relish the moment and take a minute to enjoy your achievement as you transition into your final weight loss goals. You inspire me to go on with my efforts realizing that there is hope if you persevere. I guess it isn't supposed to be easy or we would all be thin. Making changes exemplifies commitment. Congratulations on your steadfast commitment to making a better you! I can relate to the health issues as I truly find myself desiring to improve my health as my weight impedes my holistic recovery from the many damaging consequences of being morbidly obese. I have faith that if I follow in the paths of those that have gone before me, I will surely achieve the goals that I desire. So, CONGRATULATIONS! Job well done!

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    2213 days ago
    that is so wonderful to hear! I am so happy for you!!

    Keep up the awesome work!!
    2213 days ago
    Congratulations - how VERY exciting. I know you have to feel SO much better AND I'm sure that seeing those measurements of today made you so glad you have remained on the journey.

    Keep up the good work & keep sharing. It's always SO encouraging to see how others are doing!

    2213 days ago
  • THOMS1
    emoticon You are doing a great job!
    2213 days ago
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