Sunday, May 27, 2012
I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia over 8 years ago. Somewhere along the line I read that people with fibromyalgia actually feel ten years older than they chronologically are. So, that means I’m actually feeling like a 77 year old. Ten years ago having fibromyalgia wasn’t so very bad, but now my body is beginning to feel worse. I have joint pains in most of my joints; I have memory issues and concentration issues. My knees won’t lift me off a chair anymore.
So, what does this mean? It means adjusting. There are adjustments at every stage of life and if I’m at a new stage, it doesn’t mean I should give up. I now use a cane and a walker is waiting in the wings. I read much more slowly and need to keep notes on the characters in the book I’m reading. I keep lists everywhere of the things I need to do and appointments I need to keep.
I visited my daughter in Arkansas a few weeks ago and the flight down knocked out all my energy. I walked between gates carrying my laptop and my CPAP machine (another adjustment). I learned from that experience and asked for a wheelchair (another adjustment) between the gates on the way home. I’m real glad I did. I arrived home with much more energy than when I arrived in Arkansas.
I’m sure there are more adjustments coming at me down the road. I need to be open and ready for them. My adult kids want me to live until I’m 100 years old, especially since they lost their dad to cancer two years ago. I’m going to do my best.