Ego and Perfection
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Yoga is important in my life. I practice it daily 5 or 6 days a week and I teach 5 yoga classes a week. I know that yoga is not about perfection but about what your body and mind can attain on any particular time and day. I also know that I need to check my ego at the door when I start a yoga practice.
So.... given that I know all that, why do I find myself in the midst of my practice with my teeth clenched, struggling to get my leg one mm closer to the floor in front splits? Why do I find my mind filled with the comments of my teacher at my last lesson and berate myself for not following his suggestions to the letter? Why do I let myself feel inferior because I look around a class, I focus on what I am not doing instead of what I am doing?
I want to shake the habits of so many years of being a people pleaser, of being hyper vigilant to protect myself, of seeing perfection as the only option and anything else as failure. I have done that is so many areas of my life, being able to accept both/ands, doing as much as I can and letting go of the results... why is it still here in the area of my life that is so important to me?