Monday, May 21, 2012
Okay today is day number one of numerous day number ones in my history. I started out in a bad mood and did a pretty good pep talk to myself while getting ready for work. Did pretty good with my intake but struggling to get moving due to a massive headache and stomach pain. I will not let this defeat my positive attitude towards change!!
Someone recently gave me the kick in the ass I needed without really knowing it! I have only met this person twice and he nailed it!!! Asked me why I am continuing to hide behind my weight??? Why I use the weight to keep people from getting close to me?? He is so right the weight gain has been an emotional crutch, one that I really want to break. Outwardly I appear as a strong, independent female. Inwardly, I am just like everyone else with insecurities and fears. I am not going to allow this weight to continue to have power over my life!!! Gonna keep this mans words in my head to continue to motivate myself!!!.