A blip on the radar
Monday, May 21, 2012
A flash in the pan.
A wrinkle in time.
This too shall pass.
Can't say that I'm all that happy with being in the top portion of my range...so I actually vocalized it on Saturday to my husband.
Quick backstory: I listen to him talk about everything weightloss related since he is on maintenance too...and is going through his own exercise slump...and he's doing great....but for some reason, whenever I mention my own weightloss world, he turns the conversation to him...and then I just shut up and let him talk....mainly because I guess he needs to talk about it more than me, and that is OK....but....
On Saturday, in front of my closet...picking out clothes for work....he walked in and I just said this: "I'm not in a good place right now - I haven't seen that number on the scale in god-knows-when - I'm being more active than ever, and yet I feel ginormous. So please don't talk to me about where you are at right now, I just do not want to hear it."
And that was that. I went back to my closet and picked out oh-so-flaterring white scrub pants and a t-shirt to go under my scrub jacket. Loose fitting nonsense clothes...I'd figure out the rest later in the afternoon.
Here's the kicker....it's not like nothing fits. Hardly the case. Things fit, just not the way I am used to them fitting in the last 2 weeks. They are a oh so slightly snug - which means I'd better get focused on getting back control. and let's face it, mostly...I'm mental. I'm thinking it is really wors than it is, when really, it really is nothing that a few days of rigorous nutrition and exercise tracking can't handle....but SOMEtimes...it just gets so damn tiring to keep going on and on like this, day after day after day.
But then again....that's life...right? right.
So I logged everything, as usual, that morning after toast, and he came up to me and kissed me - looked me dead in the eye and said "Don't get discouraged, you are doing great, it's just a little blip." Another kiss and a hug and I was off to work.
It was nice to be heard (beside here on Spark - LoL) - It's hard keeping things on an even keel sometimes when all you want to do is scream "ENOUGH already!!!!" and that can go for ANYthing in life. Sometimes....it is just nice to be heard.
Anyway...just giving you a peak into my head right now. Honestly today is a strange "I don't feel like eating" day - these are rare in my world....usually I am eating every 2 or 3 hours! Maybe it's my body giving my brain a rest from thinking about food all the time. What a nice gift! Thank you body! LoL
Hope everyone is having a great Monday!