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Monday, May 21, 2012

been sitting here thinking... why do i try.. why do i feel .. why do i.......
i comes down to the thoughts that come in when i stop to think about why my dh loves me... i guess i still see myself as someone that doesnt belong, that doesnt measure up... i mean i have met and deal with his ex-wives... and both are thin, blonde, and have his kids... me well im not thin, not blonde, and can never have a child with him... not cause i dont want to, but because he cant have anymore... not that it matters i still love him... but at times i wonder why did he pick me, why does he love me... im not thin, im not a mother to his children, im not someone that he has known for ever... we have been together for almost 3 years, and been married sense nov. but i still wonder why...
i guess i still ahve the thoughts that came so many times when i was with my ex-h... and that at times they rule my head.. i wish i knew how to get them out... how to think that im worth my dh...

maybe in time ill get there.. just i know it wont be today
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  • LINDA!
    I agree with Judi. You are a special person. Please do not compare yourself with others. There are many wonderful qualities that you have.
    2678 days ago
  • JUDI_CUTIE
    I don't know you well, but in just a short time, I have already "noticed" you. You do seem special.

    I think that the way to get those thoughts out of your head is to put different thoughts into your head. Brainstorm a list for yourself of all of the things about you that make you special and "worthy" of your dh. You don't need a certain number of reasons. It is probably a matter of some intangible things about you that make him so happy to have you in his life.

    And while you are at it, you can jot down anything about yourself that makes you wonderful to other people too. And what do you like best about yourself?

    Be conceited! Don't hold back. Say it all!!!
    2679 days ago
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