Now I feel like sh*t!
Monday, May 21, 2012
In my last blog, I talked about how good I felt. Well, today, I don't feel the same. As I mentioned the other day, I didn't really know how much I weighed, because it had been a while since I was on a scale. Well, my mom came to visit yesterday and brought her scale. She handed it to me and went in the other room to talk to my fiance. I set the scale on the floor, stepped on it, then, I screamed. My mom and fiance both looked at me as a tossed the scale on the floor, and quietly walked in the living room and sat down. I was shocked. I knew I gained some weight, but I didn't expect that much.
Towards the end of last year, I was doing pretty well. I got down to about 176lbs. When I weighed myself this past January, I was up to 184. Well now, I am up to 194!! Ugh! I am so mad at myself. I knew it would happen, though. No gym membership, eating crappy food, not exercising at home. Ugh.
I started my journey in January 2011 at 205lbs. In that year of on and off exercising and eating right, I still managed to lose almost 30lbs. But since I quit my job and moved in with my fiance, I managed to gain almost all of that back.
I did go for an hour long walk Friday, and have been eating better than I have been lately. Also, my mom, fiance and I all went for an hour and a half long walk yesterday morning. Those are some little steps in the right direction I guess.
I know myself, and I really need a job so I can get a gym membership! I love going to the gym. I would much rather be in the gym for a few hours, than do any sort of workout at home. Especially on cloudy, yucky days like today. It's too gross to go outside for a walk, and I hate doing exercise videos in the house. I guess I just need to suck it up, and deal with the fact that I can't go to the gym, and I just need to do things at home. It will be hard, but I need to try.