Sunday, May 20, 2012
This is the first time in a LONG time that I have been making excuses. I guess I am getting a little tired and feel this will probably be my last round for a while. Went to camp this weekend and didnt "fit in!" Went with youngest DD and family. Her DH keeps no regular schedule for eating and well that was hard for me!
Got there late Fri and ate BBQ chips with them. Nota great amount, but the guilt trip came into play. Sat. made up for it by raking leaves for most of the day, but then again meals were not on schedule, but were better. Had turkey patties and veggies. Didnt track it, but I think I was close to being on track. Had one beer and again more BBQs.
Is it wrong to feel bad about a 7 mo. old keeping me awake? He seemed to be crying all the time! They took off for the beer and the only way I kept him quiet was by taking a walk with him. Good for me too, I guess. Just used to walking at a faster pace then pushing a stroller! Didnt get to gym due to the raking. Just wondering how Mem. Day weekend will go under the same circcumstances. I really love them all but it tough to relax under those conditions.
Guess I gotta admit that I am getting older and things just dont seem the same anymore. It will be easier I think when it is just the GKs and DD and me. Nothing against SIL but it will be easier to schedule meals, etc.
So next weekend, I will shop with DD and try to get healthier and reserve my time for myself at the gym or walking. Not giving up understand on the changes I have made, but the obligations of posting everyday and trying to keep up on the challenges will be a challenge! I will try my best this round, but it wont be my usual results.
Guess what I am trying to say is I gotta stand on my own for part of the summer and actually see If I am maiking the necessary changes and can live with that! So if I become MIA for a while, do not hold it against me. I will be checcking in less often as I explore my new found responsibilities. Wish me luck!