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Day 4

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Today I woke up thinking that I had to get up and move, and I almost felt like I was going to go back to my old ways of just putting it off 'for later', I logged in SP and saw some of my sparkfriends comments on my blogs and that got me motivated, so I decided to stay in bed a bit longer, maybe finish an episode of a show I started yesterday and then get up and do my first workout of the day, I decided to do it like this in order to sort of get the workout in as part of a routine I do every day, kinda trying to make it fit the way I live and not see it as a disruption that would make me reject by default. It seems it worked just fine.

The funny thing about this is, I was doing one of the 10 minute videos that I have grown to love, I currently live with my sister, right at the end when I was stretching, my sister knocked on my door (it was locked), so instead of just opening it and let her see I was exercising, I felt like I had to hide it, I quickly took off my shoes and moved my computer to an angle that she wouldnt be able to see what I was looking at and then I opened the door.

This has me thinking, why? why would I do that? I was not doing anything bad, and I am certain that she would be very happy and supportive, so I just wonder why.. Have you guys ever experienced anything like this before?? If so, what were your conclusions as to why it happens?

Aside from that, I am feeling great, I have found SP to be amazing at motivating me to keep up with this healthy changes and even if I am going slow and taking small steps, I feel I have this newfound confidence in the process and also in myself. So thank you to my new, wonderful sparkfriends for the support.

Wish everyone has a happy, full of achievements, lovely weekend.

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    Yes, I've definitely been one to hide any evidence that I'm trying to do things healthier. For me there were two things. One is just avoiding attention. I don't want others making a big deal about something I do. Which is silly when I let it stop me doing something I liked and was good for me. The other is a vague fear that if they know, while they'll be happy right now, they'll also start trying to "help" and if I don't do it one day I don't want to be nagged to do it. I want to get it done on my own.

    *edit* In fact, one of my aborted things was doing crunches in bed before getting up in the morning. My DDa heard my breathing several days in a row and asked if I was okay. I quit doing them even though I told her what I'd been doing.

    Your reasons are likely to be different, but it's not abnormal to feel somehow defensive of what we do and change in the early days.
    2164 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/20/2012 1:38:46 AM
    Great job on your commitment to yourself and your program and very happy to hear that you are indeed motivated! You're doing great.

    Personally, I haven't had this experience, but then again, I live alone. Hopefully, you can tell your sister about your goals and maybe she will want to join in.

    2165 days ago
    Good Morning Sunshine!

    I too have started thinking of moving as part of my day, I don't roll in the bed longer to avoid exercising. Spark has given me that.

    Lol, Hiding exercising. I find it funny cause I have done that. For me I don't know if it's because I don't want people to know If I stop? Or see that they may be disappointed in me? Or a lack of confidence in me that I won't be able to keep it up?

    I tell everyone now, and I put in the lil disclaimer. I feel great when I do it, I hope I keep it up.

    And telling folks - some have had such big cherry smiles and are totally encouraging, I deserve that.

    Anyways Your doing it emoticon !!!
    2165 days ago
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