Friday, May 18, 2012
As I stressed and fretted all week with many almost non existent sleepless nights, I reflected on a few things. The things I DON'T want.
I don't want to have all the health issues that comes with obesity.
I don't want my children to have all the health issues that comes with obesity.
I don't want to get to a point where my only option is any type of weight loss surgery.
I don't want to hear the jokes from the men on my side of the family about my legs, butt, hips, or thighs being big.
I don't want my children to ever feel the way I do at times
I don't want to see my BMI at obesity level at the doctor's office anymore
I don't want to end up feeling so depressed and lonely that I never get off the couch and soon develop neuropathy that I can no longer walk.
I don't want to look in the mirror and see what I see today.
I don't want anymore stress and anxiety that I can handle at one time.
What I do want:
I want to know that I can do this on my own without surgery and pills.
I want what I already have - the love of my husband, children, friends and the Good Lord Above without conditions.
I want to know I can do anything I set my heart, mind and soul to do.
I want to feel happy with myself, even when I am angry at myself.
I want my children to develop WAY better nutrition and fitness habits and not become couch potatoes.
I want for myself and my children the confidence that comes from within knowing that when we accomplished something we set forth to do.
All the DON'T wants listed above are related either to me or to someone I know and do love. I think sometimes we look at others and just know where we Don't want to be and that may be better than knowing where we do want to be.
Anyway, it has been a very long week and I have another one ahead of me starting Sunday. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Now it's time to relax a bit before bed and the hustle and bustle of tomorrow.