I have had a truly amazing past few years. Now you read this thinking I've had good luck right? It's exactly the opposite....I have been blessed with one trial & tribulation after another.
I can give a very brief run down of the past for those who don't know me. Ok so...May 2010 my brother-in-law died at 35 tragically & my grandfather died both within two weeks. Sept 2010 my sister-in-law committed suicide. October 2010 my husband's grandma died. I found out I was pregnant in Nov. 2010. I had a missed miscarriage of twins at 10 weeks. The pill to induce a full miscarriage didn't fully work & I needed a D&C. I got pretty depressed after. Jan. 2011 I had a surgical procedure which I recovered very poorly from causing months of pain. Soon after, my husband relapsed drinking after being sober since 2009.
I lost my job in Sept. 2011. I hurt my neck & had a hard time through the winter. Jan. 2012 my husband tried to commit suicide twice. He spent time in an inpatient mental health unit. I ended up jobless because I couldn't handle it all. March 2012 I was in a car accident and totaled my car. My husband & I had ongoing issues for months. His mental health being unstable. April 2012 he admits he has been drinking again for a month. May 1 he tries to commit suicide & I call 911 to have him brought back to inpatient mental health. He is there until they release him May 4.May 5 he gets drunk & gets in major trouble with the law. He goes to jail for the first time in his life.
Presently he has lost his job. A job he was at for 8 years. I am unemployed and my unemployment just ran out. I just had a job interview today. The other party is trying to sue me for our car accident. None of us were injured & I am thankful to be alive.
Through out all of this I have gone from....wow, I'm having some bad luck. To, why is this happening to me. It can't possibly get any worse. All of those types of thoughts to acceptance. The amazing & best thing that happened though, is I became grateful. I knew I could have died in my car accident. I didn't & I also escaped with only bruises and a sore body. That makes me appreciate every single day I am alive. Every moment is priceless. We never know when things can change.
I have learned that I am stronger than I ever dreamed I was. When I said that I could handle no more after my car accident, I was so wrong. We are very powerful, resilient, and amazing people. I truly believe that your attitude can make or break you.
No matter how broke you think you are (financially), I've learned that you can have less. If you think you have none then, you can still have less. It helps me appreciate what I do have & also to feel for others who truly have nothing.
Every time you think you have seen the worst, things can get much much worse. Be thankful for the simple things. One thing you find out during truly trying times, is who your true friends are. You appreciate your family, friends, being able to take a walk, and simple pleasures that we can sometimes lose in a busy life.
Right now, I'm not sure if things are going to get better. I am hopeful. I also know that despite where I am at, things truly are not that bad. It's all a matter of perception. Whatever life throws at me, I WILL survive. I am now a survivor & I know that I will fight & I will get through whatever happens.
I want to share this with everyone. Ordinary people can do anything with resilience, positive attitude, strength, and determination. Never give up. Your hopes, dreams, and goals are always within your reach!