So tired lately...
Monday, May 14, 2012
So I'm still making progress losing weight. It's going really slow right now because I have no energy or motivation right now. Luckily I've been at this long enough now that I've gained enough healthy habits to still make some progress.
For some reason I've been really tired since I started my job. First I tried going to bed early enough to give myself 8 hours of sleep. It was not enough. So then I started going to bed an hour earlier for 9 hours. It was a little better but still not enough(I find myself falling asleep watching TV when I get home from work which I never used to do). I just can't bring myself to go to bed at 5 pm though. A normal person can't need 10 hours of sleep a day, can they? Besides, my husband has been working the night shift & he doesn't wake up until 4pm. That would only give us an hour each day. I'm not liking only 2 hours as it is. The hubby hopes he'll be back on days next week. Fingers are crossed. I'm working an extra hour every day for the rest of this month. It's not required but we're busy at work right now and I want the extra money. :P We're saving up for a trip to Germany next July. Anyway... back to my being tired. My mom says I should have my thyroid checked. And I told her that I mention it to my doctor every time I go in (I'm paranoid because my family has a lot of problems with their thyroids.) and the doctor always feels my neck and tells me my thyroid is fine. My mom was shocked and said I have to have my blood drawn to check my thyroid. Well I didn't know that! I just trusted my doctor to do the right thing! I really should have known better! I once had a medical problem for many years & I kept telling my FORMER doctor that something wasn't right & she actually implied it was all in my head. Well I finally got a new doctor, a diagnosis & ended up having surgery. (Unfortunately there's still something not right and this time I got a vague diagnosis and told there's nothing that can be done. Luckily its not that bad of a problem.) Anyway, now I'm thinking I should make a doctors appt. and figure out why I'm so tired, thyroid problem or whatever.
Our ten year wedding anniversary was Friday. My hubby & I didn't do a darn thing to celebrate. I kind of felt bad because I thought it was kind of a big deal. We actually spent Fri. night at a party for my parents 40th anniversary. Their anniversary was actually on Saturday though. So I just pretended the party was for my husband and I also.
Today is my idiot brother's birthday. I'm not supposed to acknowledge it though since he's become a Jehovah's Witness. I can't help but think of him anyway. Birthdays are still important to me. And tomorrow he has court. He told my family not to come because he thinks its just preliminary stuff and nothing important. I can't help but be worried about it though. I know nothing about legal procedures. And he wrote to me the other day in frustration that he had stuff he wanted to talk about with his lawyer. But the lawyer keeps standing him up & so he hasn't spoken to her about anything since the day they first met in Feb. So his stress has me stressed out now too.
Well time for bed. I have tomorrow off but I'm so tired now!