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Coming Up for Air

Monday, May 14, 2012

As I come out of my first month in my new job, I'm finally taking my blinders off. While it was a lateral transfer, there were a lot of new responsibilites delegated to me. (So in this respect lateral move means more work = no more pay. LOL...sort of.) I am on staff at a college and the workload is very cyclical. Work has slowed down a lot, at least enough for me to come up for air and re-connect with other areas of my life.

When I started SP I wondered what I would do when a major life change occurs, and how I would handle my new, healthier lifestyle. As it turns out, I did not balance it well at all. I have not been tracking my food, not been logging on to SP, and not regularly excercising. I have truly been in survival mode, as the volume and intensity of my workload has been overwhelming. When I get home, my time was spent taking care of everyone but me. I have gained back most of the 8 pounds it took me two months to lose. Part of me feels like the "old" me, the one I wanted to move away from just three short months ago. I even thought about not returning to SP, embarrassed not only by my self-neglect, but also by my not being present for my SP friends who I support and admire.

I'm sure I'm not the first person to go through this, and I won't be the last. And I'm sure there are folks a lot busier than me. Nobody made me fall off the wagon. I take full responsibilty for that. But guess what...I am NOT the old me. Life happens, and good or bad, stress is stress. I've been more acutely aware of how badly I feel when I'm not eating well. I've even decided to make some serious adjustments to the macronutrients I track. So maybe I'm coming back stronger than ever. Time will tell.

At any rate, I'm back. I may not have as much time to spend on SP every day, but that is OK. Contrary to my old stinkin' thinkin', it doesn't have to be all or nothing. I really missed my Spark friends and I just can't see going through this journey without you!

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  • WALKINGRED
    I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK!

    I will continue to support and admire you right back. Life happens. Part of my success is that I work part-time, have a work-out/exercise partner in Mike, and no kids. Straight up. You DO have it harder than me, but I KNOW that you can achieve any goal you set for yourself.

    I like Aponi's random emoticon... Here's another: I will call it "weird baby head" emoticon
    2230 days ago
  • SUSANS706
    Welcome back! The best part is you are back! I understand your feelings exactly I don't think it's many people's first rodeo here. We are all here to help each other, and I am glad you are back!
    2230 days ago
  • APONI_KB
    Don't be embarrassed, if everyone were perfect the world would be a boring place. I'm glad you're sticking it out.

    ps. there are some really random emoticons on here

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    2230 days ago
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