Dat two of B-day/ mothers day
Sunday, May 13, 2012
So I have an extreme lack of enery today even though I weighed mysself and had lost two pounds in the last week that brings my total up to 8 pounds. I also put on my pants that I bought when I first started gaining weight and they fit, which I hadn't worn in a couple months.
I don't know what's beating me up more. There is the overall mothers day followed by facebook posts of all my friends getting ready to be mothers. Yeah you know the drill, I've beena good person, loved and worked with kids all my life why can't I have any. I know God has a plan. There is also that feeling that I failed yesterday. I did really good until the end of the night. I had only one small bowl of ice cream and one small piece of cake and went off to play with the kids. Then as the night dwelled down I went back for seconds. If it wasn't for that then I would be okay. My husband was like it's okay it's you r birthday, but is it really okay? this is the second weekend I've splurged. There is also the part where everyone thought it was my birthday yesterday and today we are throwing a party for my in laws for mothers day so my birthday is forgotten. I try to say its a good thing but I don't know.
So sorry this isn't a rant but more of a sorrow. I have lots to do maybe it will perk me up. Things are really all going well maybe I've just tired because I've been so go go. Thanks to everyone who I know sticks by my side.