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It's All About Perspective

Friday, May 11, 2012

I was thinking a lot about perspective during my last long run. The moment of realization is so interesting. It seems so obvious once it’s happened, and you can never look at something the same way again.

When Andy drove me 22 miles from my house, I had one of those moments. I had him drive me to the closest gas station for a pit stop before I began my super long run. The gas station was almost the exactly 26.2 miles. I’ve been kind of freaking out about the length of this race, and in my mind it became something far worse than what it really is. Seeing the distance made it seem a lot more possible. It doesn’t seem so terrifying. I know I can run that far.

I thought a lot about my speed – which is incredibly slow. I went into this marathon with the goal of finishing, but somewhere along the way, I got caught up in time. During my last run, I decided to stick with the initial goal and try to enjoy the experience. There is no point in being upset because I’m not as fast as other runners. It seems obvious, but it was a hard thing to accept. I’ve always had a very competitive (ridiculously so) view of sports, but the wonderful thing about running is that it is a solo thing. You are your own competition, and you just keep trying to improve. So, I will stick with my goal of completing it and enjoy this. I’ll work on speed after the marathon. Then, if I do another one, I can set a time goal.

I’m starting to see myself as a runner. It’s taken a long time. I recently wrote about how it took a long time to see myself as I really look. I got another dose of perspective when I was talking to some friends. I’m always worrying about the rest of the weight I need to lose, but I rarely think about how much I’ve already lost.

One of my friends asked how much I’d lost. When I said 94 pounds, she told me that was what she weighed. I kind of stared at her when she said that. It probably seemed totally rude, but I was thinking about all the years I spent basically carrying her around. It kind of put my weight loss into a new perspective.

Having a good training run made me feel so much better about the marathon. If I can do 22 miles, I can finish. It’s making me feel a lot calmer. I’m getting really excited about it. I’m still nervous, but it is going to be an awesome experience.
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  • NUMD97
    I, too, love the imagery of what things weigh that equate to our weight loss. I wrote a blog about it (as have many others), because it gives a very clear visual of what we have accomplished.

    You've set your cap on a marathon (very formidable, indeed!), and you will see yourself reach this goal as you have trained for it. You are correct that if this is the first run, the time is the least of it (not that I would know from personal experience, but from what I've read) and just focusing on finishing is more than enough to concentrate on. Ultimately, in any goal-setting it is us versus us, frankly. And as we all know, in the end we are our own worst enemies.

    Revel in all you have accomplished thus far, and delight in setting new goals for yourself. You are an incredible inspiration.

    Much continued success as your journey to better health continues,

    2193 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/20/2012 6:47:06 PM
    Hooray! Definitely don't worry about anything - just enjoy the run. You've done so much preparation for it. You're ready. You'll have a wonderful time!

    I get what you're saying about thinking of how much you want to lose rather than thinking of how far you've come. I know I've come really far, and I used to tell myself all the time how awesome I was doing with all the weight I'd lost. Lately, however, as I've gotten closer to and then under my goal weight, my drive has been all about "those last few pounds." I need to (more often) remember and celebrate how much I've lost...thank you for the reminder. :)
    2202 days ago
    You are on the right track with the absolute right frame of mind. YAY!
    2202 days ago
    First congratulations on completing your 22 miles! You can do 26 at that point. I think once you get mentally ready nothing can stop you in your quest! I would have to agree with you though that you get so tied up with worrying about those last few pounds, 10 lbs. or 30 lbs. that you really don't realize how much you've lost until it's brought to your attention and then it takes you back and makes you stop and think about it! To know that your friend is as heavy as the weight you lost said it most to know that you had been carrying her around for many years does put it into perspective. I've dropped at least a bag of dog food and when you "see what you've dropped" it makes it real.....

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    You can do it just keep positive and keep your eyes on the prize!

    2202 days ago
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