Thursday, May 10, 2012
On this weight loss journey, the thing I struggle the most with is consistency. I plan my meals and eat according to plan for a while then stop. I work out my 4 days a week for a while then stop. I spark on a daily basis for a few weeks then stop. It seems as if I can't keep things going in the right direction long enough to allow myself to reach my goals. I struggle with being consistent in many areas of my life. I have been this way for as long as I can remember. It's as if I have this mental hurdle that I reach, but cannot get over. I really need to get to the bottom of it, because I know that it is really keeping me from reaching my full potential. It makes me feel inadequate.
I also under-estimate my abilities. I am fearful of stepping out of my comfort zone. Just Tuesday, I realized that I am capable of doing much more physically than I initially thought. My job had a Zumba instructor come in and lead a 30 minute session for all employees willing to participate. I have painful arthritis in my knees, but I decided to give it a go. When we got there, it actually turned out to be a Zumba/African Dance combo. Whew, what a workout! I made it through the whole thing with a few modifications, but no stopping. Although that workout did a number on me, I still completed my planned evening workout, which was a total body strength training circuit and an hour of water aerobics.
I did not have any intentions of going to water aerobics. I was telling myself that the Zumba was all the cardio I could handle and that I just needed to power through the strength training and go home. While strength training, I rationalized that I could go to water aerobics and just modify the exercises if I was too tired to do them full-on. Well, I did the whole hour full-on. I gave it all I had and still managed to go home and make dinner for my daughter. I couldn't believe what I had done and it made me proud. It made me want to push myself to the limit like that every day I workout. Then yesterday, nothing. I guess I could consider sweeping, mopping, vacuuming, and the other housework I completed as exercise, but I still feel bad about not going to water aerobics last night. You see, there's that consistency - or shall I say inconsistency thing that I'm talking about.
In an effort to be more consistent, I am creating a 21 day challenge. I think I heard somewhere that it takes 21 days to develop a habit. So I am starting fresh Monday trying to go 21 consecutive days planning my meals and exercising. I have to plan around family gatherings Memorial Day weekend, but it can be done. I know the menu already, so I just need to plan what foods I can partake in and the ones I need to steer clear of. I will be taking fruit for my dessert and limiting my cocktails. I have the Leslie Sansone 5 Big Miles dvd, so I can get exercise in even if I don't make it to the gym. I have to plan, plan, and plan some more. In the end it will be all worth it. Wish me luck!!!