Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Sunday was my half birthday. I am now officially less than six months from my 40th birthday! I am not dreading turning 40. I am happy I have the opportunity :-) I do think, though, that this should be a good time for me to sort of evaluate where I am, where I want to be and all that. The year before I turned 35 I was very motivated to do more for myself. Somehow I am just not able to get into that mindset at the moment. I KNOW what I should be doing. I KNOW I would feel a lot better (and younger) if I did it. I just don't KNOW how to get my head on board to do it! I am currently choosing not to do the right things. Very frustrating....
I have been struggling with some depression since our baby was born 15 months ago. I am feeling more and more like myself, but still not quite up to taking care of myself I guess. We are also in a very busy part of our year. Soccer 5 or 6 nights a week, Girl Scouts, finishing up school projects for the year and on and on....
I actually have had two more children since I turned 35. I gained a bunch of weight with the first baby after 35, but not with the second. The strange thing is I have gained about 25 pounds since August. How did I get here???? I weighed less than when I started my pregnancy right after I got home from the hospital. I gained about ten pounds over all and my baby weighed 9 pounds.
I know I could carve out time for myself, but I find myself making bad choice after bad choice. I spend much of the day helping the kids with school work and playing on FB. I know I could find time for myself. I just won't make myself do it. I guess that is the key. I am the only one who can do this for me!
I guess I should start with some short term tangible goals?
1. Workout 3x per week by the end of May
2. Track food 1x per week by the end of May
I know this may not seem like much, but it is a start and believe me it is far better than what I am doing now!