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Not "weighting" to be happy

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

So- I was jut reading my friend Steph's blogs and I realized that I am kind of a negative nelly lately! Blogging about the bad stuff helps me get it out and to understand myself better. Well I'm sure it doesn't help my cause being so negative and only writing about the negative things I've been seeing, doing, done.

So here's one for me and anyone who has stuck with me this far.

I've lost over 90lbs. OMFG! I'm finally getting used to my new lifestyle and am still adjusting to my new life.

I finally got myself a boyfriend- first LTR of my life. It's been an adjustment and I realize love isn't easy!

Dear god sex is though! We have the most amazing sex, and we like to mix it up too. I'm a gemini so it doesn't take a lot for me to get bored. and when i get bored I get destructive. So we gotta keep it fresh. He makes me feel SO sexy that it just makes things that much better.

Finally I am able to let out my inner she-sex-beast Ive had to hold back for so long! That in itself has made my life amazing. We are a good couple, there's always things to improve on- and I think we'll be together long enough to do that :)

My money situation could be better. honestly but whose couldn't be, right?

emoticon I am going on 3 amazing trips this year:

emoticonA mini-getaway for me and boyfriend over my birthday weekend. Staying at a resort- and there's a hot tub in our room. OW OW!!! ;)

emoticon Yellowstone National Park for a week over the 4th of July with my BFF and her family (my second family) without spending money it's only gonna cost $300!

emoticonAnd the finale- the big one- what these past two years, ups and down, failures and successes, breakthroughs and breakdowns have been for: BACK to Las Vegas. begining of December. BFF and I are returning. Each will be at LEAST 110lbs lighter than the last time we went. Imagine.

This year is going to be great- who knows where I will be at the end of it. I could have some more jewelry..... ;) ;) but too soon to say for sure! haha

I hope to be down to minimum of 160. That would need to be 1.2lb a week until Dec. 1.

BRING. IT. ON!!!!!!!

I am so close with my family these days it makes me so happy. It's like growing up really makes you see what's important in life. And having people around you who love you no matter what is super important.

Another amazing feat:

I can run. When I was at my biggest sometimes I just wanted to RUN! When I tried, it hurt. Plus I could not breathe. Now I can run 50+ minutes at a time. I WILL be running a 10K June 9th! It's going to be brutal and I am sure I won't be able to run the entire thing, but god damn am I going to try. I could walk the thing in 2 hours, so I'm going to try running it in 80 minutes. That's my goal.


Although I am stressed and sad about my weight not being where I wanted it to be, it's not the end of my life. Taking it day by day helps so much. And I have to understand the consequences if I do over-enjoy myself with drink and food.

As long as I'm having fun while not losing control- I am free to be me :)

I am so happy. emoticon
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    I'm so glad you wrote this blog. Honestly when I was reading your previous blog last night, I kinda wanted to say "But what about all the great things that have happened, look at how amazing you've done so far". But I didn't want to sound preachy or downplay the rough stuff you are going through. But I'm so glad you found the bright side. Because you are Amazing and you have accomplished so much!
    2171 days ago
    Ummmmmm jewelry?!?!?!?! Is that what I think you mean?!?! Omgomgomgmgmgomg!

    You really do have a lot to look back on and be proud of, not to mention moving in with a boy & not letting that totally destruct your goals! It gets hard to remember that stuff sometimes when you are in the thick of it but writing good things down in blogs like this can be a good way to reality check yourself!

    And it is also totally acceptable to be negative once in a while. Gotta have the darkness to appreciate the light!

    I also can't wait to see the before and after Vegas pix! You'll be in onederland by then for sure! Crazy livin it up in Vegas, they won't know what hit Em!
    2171 days ago
    You can do it, just look at how far you've come! It took me more than two years to lose 85 pounds but I stuck with it through all the ups and downs and here I am at goal and maintaining (two months and counting!). I know you'll get there too and you'll see that things only get better as you get closer and closer to making your goals and dreams a reality.
    2172 days ago
    emoticon you're doing great! Keep focusing on the positive.
    2172 days ago
    It's so great to hear about all the positive things happening in your life. I think the more positive you can be, the easier the weight will fall off! Enjoy each day, continue to work hard and the rest will follow! You're doing great!
    2172 days ago
    Wow!! You've had some major accomplishments, and I love your positive attitude! emoticon
    2172 days ago
    I love your play on words! Congrats on the weight lost and keep up the amazing work! You can do it!
    2172 days ago
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