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Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Went to BP last night, can now double the weight on my bar for the squats and the tricep workouts are getting more manageable. Now I hate lunges. Those things are devil designed! While I think all this is great for toning I don't think it will do much for my actual weight loss. I need to find time to run as well and get my heart pumping.

I also need to go to bed earlier!

This week is a disaster in terms of food. My heart just isn't in it. I've been having cereal with milk for breakfast, something I haven't done in over a year because I don't eat cereal anymore. or I didn't. I didn't have time to make lunch today and I can't leave the office as I have to leave early so I'm working through my break so I don't know what I'll end up eating. I know I'm going out on Thur and all of it makes me want to say 'to hell with it' and just eat what I want.

But this happens ALL THE TIME! This is why I'm not thin yet. My brain is so damaged that I seem to think a week won't hurt but it does, over and over and over again. I am insane to think that this will bring anything other than weight gain. Like I can somehow 'get away with it' but who am I fooling? Only myself.

And even after all of that, I know that I am not going to make a great effort this week. I am going to meander along, eating carbs and sugar, going to body pump and out at the weekend and then on Sunday i will be filled with remorse when the scale registers a gain.

I will have no one to blame but myself and yet I can't seem to shake out of it. I deserve my fatness.
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  • LOVEANANIMAL
    Congrats on increasing you barbell weight! That is great!

    There was a spin class that I was taking which was taught by a physician assistant and he said something that really stuck with me. He said, "Nutrition is 90% of weight loss. You can bust your butt doing all the exercise you want, but if you don't adhere to proper nutrition and calorie range, you will not see weight loss results." And he was right! I spent two months in the gym going 4 x weekly doing body pump classes, spin classes, step class, Zumba & yoga, and my weight was not dropping...because I wasn't counting my calories.

    Motivation is difficult for me to keep fresh, but DETERMINATION...now that is something that can keep pushing the mind and body.

    Find a desire to instill your own personal determination. Register for a 3K or 5K run/walk. Put the money down, find a training schedule (Hal Higdon is very good), and be determined to finish that race. You may find yourself bitten by the bug of determination to keep hunting for marathons to keep training for. : )

    Looking forward to your future blogs and reading about your success. We believe in you and are here cheering you on!!!
    2260 days ago
  • NEVERMIND2010
    You need to stop the defeatest attitude right now.

    Pump will help you lose weight, but you're right, it's not enough on its own. If you don't like running, it won't help either, because you won't do it. Find something you like. Have you tried RPM? Step? Body attack? What about just hopping on the elliptical and watching tv for an hour? It's boring, but time goes by quickly. I like Bondi Rescue on the treadmill, for various reasons. No need for sound, so I can listen to my music and watch tv and exercise all at once!

    Now I'm going to give you a couple of suggestions on the food front. First, that cereal just makes you hungrier. You need protein in the morning - especially if you're doing Pump. Tonight, boil up half a dozen eggs, and eat 1 whole and 1-2 whites tomorrow morning with some fruit.

    Do you have canned tuna in your cupboard? Tonight, get a can out to take to work tomorrow. That's lunch, along with some veggies. Do you have cucumbers? What about instant soup? My lunch today is a small (80 g?) can of tuna, Batchelor's chicken corn chowder slim-a-soup (tastes good and is filling), and a small baggie of cauliflower, carrot and cucumber. It took me about 60 seconds to wash, peel and cut the veggies this morning on my way out the door. I keep the soup packets, some Kind bars, and natural peanut butter at work for days when I can't get it together enough to grab a cucumber in the morning. I also try to keep apples and oranges around. Peanut butter and an apple is great at 2:30 or 3:00, and gives me enough energy to get through a 4:30 class and sometimes a 5:30 one, too.

    Dinner needs to be proteiny, too. How about a giant salad with grilled chicken breast? Balsamic vinegar and olive oil dressing? Doesn't that sound good? You can throw some feta in the salad for more taste and mouth feel (and protein!). Olives. Chick peas (more protein!). The bigger the salad, the fuller you'll feel.

    Do you see a common theme? I would bet you are not eating enough protein. You will get cravings, but not for canned tuna - for chips and chocolate and all sorts of crap. Eat more protein, drink more water, and go to bed before the munchies can get you!

    And take it a day at a time. Sunday, I ate nothing. Literally. Under 50 calories counting my cappuccino, green tea and sugar-free gum. Yesterday, I had regular meals, snacks, and double desserts. Ugh. Today, I'm aiming for balance between the two extremes.

    One day at a time. You can do this.
    2260 days ago
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