I hope I didn't scare anyone.

Monday, May 07, 2012

I fighting a war inside my head that seems impossible to win. I just keep coming back from the M.A.S.H. unit. I thought I might have ruined my life. I am too stupid to realize I couldn't ruin my life in just a few days. I have been destroying it for years. If it all crumbles down now it is because I allowed the foundation to be ruined. I have been trying to rebuild everything from the ground up for the past 8 months. I don't know if it can be done. I am still trying.
In a very crazy twist of fate I became really good friends with someone last night. I NEEDED a friend. I just don't have any friends that I can talk to. I had to blow off some steam. My body will pay for this for a few days, and I really don't care. It was worth it. I have to focus on the future and trying to make my life better.
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    Hi Matthew (you're already a winner with such a great name - my brother is Matthew with the two 't's' as well)

    I'm not sure what MASH is but guess it's similar to what MASH is in New Zealand. Please keep fighting to win, please don't EVER give up. You can do this, reach out and know that you really CAN do this emoticon
    2177 days ago
    Hey MC, please be careful!
    2177 days ago
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