It has been too long, but I've been GRADING!

Sunday, May 06, 2012

The semester is almost over. I've been a grading machine, hence the no blogging. I'm sorry to all my sparkfriends, I've not been commenting on blogs much either. Things should be better soon, and then I'll leave for the UK in June and be a TOTAL SP LOSER for that whole month! UGH!

Here is the news on my end. N, my friend's son is back at home, back at school, and doing well. He actually sang in a choir performance and had solos, if you can believe it! The tumor came back benign, so we all breathed a HUGE sigh of relief. I'm so happy!

My personal big news is this - after a MONTH of an evil plateau, I'm losing again. It is even better after such a long wait AND... (dun dun DUN!) I broke through 130! I can't even believe it - I was starting to think my set point wouldn't allow it, but on Saturday I was 129, and this morning I was 128.8! I'm only 4 pounds from my goal now, and I'm feeling so good!

I ordered 2 bikinis. (omygosh!!!) They have skirted bottoms, (I still don't love my heiny) but I wound up having to return the medium bottoms and the 32DD tops to go SMALLER - The small bottoms and and 30DD top should arrive this week - I hope they fit. It would stink to be inbetween sizes, so I'm hoping for the best.

We also got our train tickets squared away for the UK trip, so it is starting to feel real now. I can't wait to go!

So, the only real block I'm having is mental. I've lost weight before, (though I don't think I've ever been this FIT) and I'm worried that I won't keep up with it. I keep thinking during workouts "I'm 42! What if I can't work out at this intensity for too many more years??? Will I get heavy and out of shape again?" I'm not kidding you, have you ever heard more self defeating self talk? I'm really disappointed in myself over this. I think it is why I plateaued for so long. I was talking myself out of working as hard as I could because I didn't think I could keep it up.

Today, I just tried to tell myself that even if I can't work out at THIS intensity for the rest of my life, that I can still be more active than I was before. I still heard the pathetic voice in my head though. Any advice on how to fix that??

My best to all of you. I'm sorry this is so long, but this is the longest blog hiatus I've ever taken since I started SP. I even missed my 4 month Sparkiversary!
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    At the 4-Miler race that YDAVIS and I ran at the end of March, there was this Really, Really old guy running. His name was Johnny Parker. I know it was Johnny Parker, because one of the race volunteers was cheering him on.

    As we were leaving the event to return home, we heard the announcer announcing the winners by age group. And we heard, "And in the over 80 category, coming in #1, is Johnny Parker!"

    I'm thinking Johnny Parker wasn't stressing his workouts when he was 42. I think he just got out and did them. For sure he wasn't running the same pace at 85 that he was running at 42, but he was fit and having fun nonetheless.

    So, consider yourself the next Johnny Parker.

    Welcome back. We missed you.
    2571 days ago
  • no profile photo GARBLEDEEGOOK
    Don't worry about age, you adjust to your body as you go. You're aware and worried about keeping it off, you have won half the battle; implementation is next :)

    Keep it up

    2571 days ago
  • YDAVIS23
    Just thinking about it - I did NOT mean to take things to elderly quite so quickly - I think you should take up mountain climbing before you take up old people water aerobics :)
    2571 days ago
  • YDAVIS23
    Hey girl! Welcome back! I should be in a grading frenzy too, but it's just sitting in a bag behind my desk. I'll have to face it one day soon... progress reports are due next week!!!

    I'm glad to hear that the scale is being friendly to you. I totally agree with OPTIMIST - we have gained the knowledge to make choices that result in quantitative evidence - if things start to go in the wrong direction, we know where the gears are to turn the ship around. A month is a long time (sounds awesome! are you flying through Boston?) but this is just an opportunity for you to practice mindful living. If you don't go crazy you'll be fine.

    As far as the long term exercise goes... we can't predict the future, but you'll find ways to make it work, even if, somewhere down the road, you switch to walking, or taking care of grandchildren (yes, I'm going way down the road!) or elderly water aerobics, your body will thank you for all of the work you did right now to get you to your future self.

    Ok, I need to go shower and go to work, but welcome back! Missed ya!

    2571 days ago
    And again, here we are at the same point, lol. The way I squash the evil voice, well, as best I can anyway, is to say to myself "Every game I get to play is a gift, enjoy it". And yes, it's soccer related. But it can relate to exercise in general. Think of all the things you CAN do NOW that you couldn't before and how good you feel. Approach every workout (whether intense or just walking with the fam) as a gift. Enjoy it.

    I have also adopted the mentality that I will only weigh every 2 weeks (maybe less in the future) and if I go up a certain number on the scale, I will start being vigilant about tracking and such. That darn 'set point' is kicking my butt, but I am 1 lb away from my goal and I know I will eventually get there, but even if that means it takes me a month, I am okay with that.

    Find your own system and you'll work it out. As for the vacation, have fun, be sensible when you can and savor the foods too. I think you'll get some exercise in there too. One month will not derail you from your progress thus far, it may set you back, but heck it's a chance of a lifetime and you know what to do when you get back :)
    2572 days ago
  • OPTIMIST1948
    I'm definitely not at my skinniest - but am also more FIT than ever in my life. I cant imagine every completely going back to Sluglandia, although I'm very concerned about what happens when I go back to work. (If such a thing every happens) You are also permanently enlightened about nutrition and have reformed your eating habits.

    The fact is you might gain a bit back, but then you know how to loose it again. You wont gain it all back, but some morning, you will realize "wait, I'm 3lbs heavier" - you'll tighten up your act, eating less and exercising, and the weight will get lost again.

    And because you have the Light of Possibility within you, you will find yourself doing things that before were never possible. Look at how much LESLIELENORE has been kayaking??!? Maybe you will start climbing mountains, or horseback riding & roping (it is Texas, right?) You will continue to live an Active Life.
    2572 days ago
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