It has been too long, but I've been GRADING!
Sunday, May 06, 2012
The semester is almost over. I've been a grading machine, hence the no blogging. I'm sorry to all my sparkfriends, I've not been commenting on blogs much either. Things should be better soon, and then I'll leave for the UK in June and be a TOTAL SP LOSER for that whole month! UGH!
Here is the news on my end. N, my friend's son is back at home, back at school, and doing well. He actually sang in a choir performance and had solos, if you can believe it! The tumor came back benign, so we all breathed a HUGE sigh of relief. I'm so happy!
My personal big news is this - after a MONTH of an evil plateau, I'm losing again. It is even better after such a long wait AND... (dun dun DUN!) I broke through 130! I can't even believe it - I was starting to think my set point wouldn't allow it, but on Saturday I was 129, and this morning I was 128.8! I'm only 4 pounds from my goal now, and I'm feeling so good!
I ordered 2 bikinis. (omygosh!!!) They have skirted bottoms, (I still don't love my heiny) but I wound up having to return the medium bottoms and the 32DD tops to go SMALLER - The small bottoms and and 30DD top should arrive this week - I hope they fit. It would stink to be inbetween sizes, so I'm hoping for the best.
We also got our train tickets squared away for the UK trip, so it is starting to feel real now. I can't wait to go!
So, the only real block I'm having is mental. I've lost weight before, (though I don't think I've ever been this FIT) and I'm worried that I won't keep up with it. I keep thinking during workouts "I'm 42! What if I can't work out at this intensity for too many more years??? Will I get heavy and out of shape again?" I'm not kidding you, have you ever heard more self defeating self talk? I'm really disappointed in myself over this. I think it is why I plateaued for so long. I was talking myself out of working as hard as I could because I didn't think I could keep it up.
Today, I just tried to tell myself that even if I can't work out at THIS intensity for the rest of my life, that I can still be more active than I was before. I still heard the pathetic voice in my head though. Any advice on how to fix that??
My best to all of you. I'm sorry this is so long, but this is the longest blog hiatus I've ever taken since I started SP. I even missed my 4 month Sparkiversary!