I need help! Ive had 6 steroid injections this wk & am menopausal!

Saturday, May 05, 2012

I wanted to preamble this blog with those 2 tidbits first, so that if I ramble or have another major mood swing hopefully my Spark friends would understand.

Lets see how to start, Ive been told blogging is just like talking to someone else. Well here goes:

Im 46 years old & have somehow ??? broken the radius bone in my elbow. Nope no fall, no injury, nothing, Dr thinks I may have osteoporosis to add to the rest of my many diseases. Ive been complaining of elbow pain for about 2 months, but being stubborn didnt tell the dr. Now I am in a 24 hour a day splint for at least the next month. If there is no progress with the next xray, then hes gonna cast it and or do The Dreaded SURGERY! I live alone with my chihuahua & cant take care of myself to begin with, this really has put a cramp in my life.

Next thing that happened this week: my pain dr put 4 steroid injections into my lower back to try & help with the ower back pain & or leg pain. If you have not been on steroids consider yourself LUCKY! The side effects include but arent limited to:

Overactive hunger that never stops
Water weight gain & huge puffiness & itchiness
Sleeping is next to impossible, I laid down today & could feel my whole body just vibrating.
Mood swings! I go from not feeling worth the oxygen or food or space I am consuming to being a EXTREME PSYCHO MADWOMEN in about 1 second flat

The orthopaedic dr also gave me an steroid injection in each knee because, my knees are shot, they need to be replaced, but ALL IN UNISON NOW: YOU CANT HAVE SURGERY TIL YOU LOSE THE WEIGHT!

I am also menopausal (just starting) so the periods are insane the moods are crazy & I dont know what I am doing.

See why I made the preamble to this blog!

I have called my friends & asked for them to shot me, (Ill give them a note for the cops to get them off) no jail time. To in the next second telling them that I am not worth anything to them, myself, my dog or anyone else on this earth. Then the next second is that Im taking up too much oxygen & too much food & too much room & dont deserve to exist.

Oh yea, ran out of depression pills this week & the dr hasnt called in the refill yet. Does anyone understand why I just dont wanna be here anymore?

I sit here crying hysterically now & dont know why or what to do with myself. All my friends either live 30-300 miles away & have their own lives.

When asked today who would be a better momma for my baby (dog) I said my home health aide that loves him like I do & can at least walk him & play with him better than me.

I had finally started to think maybe I would get the weight loss surgery & was working out with my arm bike. Well Heck! That just went out the window! If anyone has any ideas for a woman who cant walk more than 10 steps at a time, cant do anything with her arms & whose mine has went out with the cuckoos nest for a way to exercise????
Please let me know!

Please keep me in your prayers, I need them & I hate to beg.

Thanks for listening, reading, just being my spark friends! I dont know where I would be without you all!

By the way, this was Peppy & I about a week & a half ago, what a change huh???

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    There is a video you can buy online. It is Gentle Fitness by Catherine MacRae. It is so awesome. I have used it for eight years. I usually pull I ty out when I m hurting badly. But I am getting ready to use it three or four times a week. It is not aerobic so it is easy to keep up and it is all sitting, minus one section for the feet and legs. The video is ninety minutes, but has breaks where you can do however much you want. I break it up into three separate days. Feel better. I know how hard it can be, especially when you are alone. I live alone. And except for the knees I suspect we have much in cc common. So chat with me if you get down. Hugs Cathy emoticon emoticon
    2810 days ago
    The jitters will subside slowly with time. Is there any other type of movement you can do like even lifting your arm up and down or isometric exercises? Can you lift your feet or legs while seated in a chair?

    Hugs to you!
    3293 days ago
    Sorry to hear about what you are going through. Well, as far as the steroids go, when you are hungry try to eat healthy foods, like more veggies, prepared with some fat and proteins like cottage cheese, fruit,unsweetened Greek yogurt w/fruit (...maybe Splenda or Stevia added for sweetness)... hearty veggie soups. If you have a slow cooker you can add one diced potato with stewed tomatoes, green beans, spinach, cabbage, onions, green peppers, etc., and if you want to add meat add chicken breast and eat that when you get hungry, so that you can fill up on good foods without gaining weight.

    If you can move your legs, why try to get, unless you already have one, stationary bike peddles that you can use while sitting in a chair. Like riding a stationery bike without actually having one!


    Please hang in there, this is coming from a 5+ years breast cancer survivor who is still fighting to lose weight. Having side-effects from the anti-cancer medication, Arimidex, and is losing bone, side effects of the medication; but so far weight bearing and Citracal has kept me from getting full blown osteo; have 2 or more years on this medication... I also had a complete hysterectomy in 2007 so I have been in menopause for awhile now.

    I hope these suggestions help and I wish you well in your recovery.

    ~ Dee (((HUGS)))

    3294 days ago
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    3294 days ago
    My dear friend Where is that fighting spirit you had. ??? What you have been through, got your self in a more positive mind. I want you to stop thinking like that. I know you are having a very bad patch, I feel for you so much, pain certainly drags you down and dealing with depression. Remeber there are people here for you all you have to do is SCREAM HELP !!!!!!!!!!! Say to yourself .......... I AM WORTH IT

    When you ask God for a gift,
    Be thankful if he sends,
    Not diamonds, pearls or riches,
    but the love of real true friends.”
    3294 days ago
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    Oh Lori, I'm so sorry for all you're going through. It would be so nice if one of your relatives or friends could come and stay with you while you have all these troubles. That would sure uplift you, I hope. I was also thinking that you would probably know Indiegirl on SP and all the troubles unon troubles that she had before losing 200 pounds. She was in a wheelchair everywhere I think. I think that if you would read her blogs and look through her photos that you could be so encouraged just knowing that there's someone else out there who's gone through so very much in life too. You are such a beautiful woman and worth it all in little steps to get you to where you want to be. I'm hoping that you can get uplifted by even writing your blog and for your friends answering you back. Please get better. Your friend, Karen ps.....tell Peppy hi from Karen, ok?! emoticon emoticon
    3294 days ago
    Hey - hang in there!!
    We all go through things like this - though maybe not all at once!! But you have the consolation that it will all be over at once!!
    Remember that we are all just in your computer - so in effect are there with you!! Maybe thats not such a good thought - the room would be ever so crowded!!

    As far as bi-pass surgery -I am not sure now is the time to make that decision - you need to weigh up all the facts and make a sensible balanced decision!! Its a very big thing to just think you will have on the spir of the moment!!

    Take your time - learn how to cope with the situation that you have now - then you will feel better.
    and remember we are all supporting you!!
    3294 days ago
    you poor thing.....that's quite a lot to handle....

    the only thing I can say, is that now is the time to try eating as healthy as possible and avoid the kind of foods that increase cravings. basically, more veggies and lay off the starches and sugars. blood sugar has a big impact on health, mood swings, and weight loss. And good nutrition is going to help speed up your healing process.

    good luck....hope you find relief soon
    3294 days ago
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    Hang in there!

    I have taken prednisone daily for the past 27 years. Yes, it caused me to gain weight, but the good news is, I once weight 227lbs and today I weight 180, so it is possible to lose weight (for anyone who is reading this and is on long term steroidal treatment) while on it. I have been as low as 152 (two years ago). I have developed osteoporosis due to taking the pred. By the way, when I weighed 227 I looked into weightloss surgery. I needed to lose 10% of my over weight (which was only 10lbs that I needed to lose before the surgeon would touch me). I began that, but the clinic sent in that I weighed 224 pounds, since that was the weight that they had at my first consult. My insurance would not pay because at 224 lbs I was three pounds short of what I needed to weigh to qualify! Yes, I do wish that I had been able to have the surgery. I am tired of yo-yoing. The thing that you need to know is that having bypass surgery does interfere with your ability to absorb the nutrients that you need. I am telling you this, since you said your dr. told you that you might have osteo. Is weightloss surgery an option for you?

    btw...I care.

    3294 days ago
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