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I get too excited too easily

Saturday, May 05, 2012

So I met this really great guy like 3-4 weeks ago. We met in person and seemed t really hit it off. Or so I thought. We had both talked about how we werent going to jump in to anything all super serious, which worked for me because I seem to have the worst luck with relationships anyways. So then after not talking for a few days I try and contact the person and there is this really weird awkwardness, even in the way he texted...only to find out that he "meant to call" and tell me that he was 'thinking' of relocating for work. Maybe I am reading way too much into this, but that kind of sounds like a line. Im sure its not because he is honestly a very very sweet guy, but after years and years of hearing lines from guys it all kind of blends together. So here I sit totally having a damn pity party and doing the full fledged stinkin' thinkin'. I wonder to myself, does stuff like this keep happening to me because of how I look? I know that is a lame thing to think, but then I become even more down and think 'oh god! maybe its just me!!! maybe I have some crummy character flaw!' I know that its just the bad news thats making me all emotional and bitter, and that after a good nights sleep I will be so much better. All I know is that I need to focus because when I get super emotional I tend to eat.....and not stop. Its like I have to punish myself for being fat and unloved by becoming more fat! I know! Ridiculous right?!?! I do have to say that venting does tend to help.
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    I agree with Freska. I also have the worst luck with men. Hell even my own husband. But in finding peace with myself i have learned that when you focus on you. And when your ok being alone and your happy in your own skin you will attract the right type of guy. He will be attracted to the best things in you and it will be awesome. I wish i learned that lesson before i got re married and settled. But even now my husband and i are trying to make ourselves better individuals so we love our better selves to save our marriage.

    Work on you so you dont settle for the wrong guy. How can you know what you need if your not complete yet. And the right guy will love you no matter what weight you are because you are simply you.
    2181 days ago
    aww... ya know, when the right time and right guy (for you) come along, things will be obvious that you BOTH are just as invested as the other in getting to know eachother and it will progress with respectful boundries between the two of you. so maybe just keep your eyes forward on you and your emotional growth for now and if the right guy comes along it will be a happy time. ;)
    keep your eye on the prize.. right? which is working on what you can control. you.

    (BIG HUGS) emoticon

    now lets kick some butt in working out and EATING RIGHT!!!

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    2181 days ago
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