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I can'ts are creeping back

Friday, May 04, 2012

Habits are strong, for good: 5 fruits and veggies, 8 glasses of water a day. And for bad: negative thinking. I was doing the 18 minute cardio-strength training video from an email this past week. It got to the burpees or whatever they're called: prop on your toes, crouch, stand, crouch, back to your toes. My 8 year old daughter does this in about 30 seconds. The video took it much slower, thank God. the first few rotations, I told myself I couldn't do it: my wrists would get sprained from my body weight, my face slamming into the floor when my arms give out will probably break a bone or two, and I have final exams I need to give. Then, I tried it, and what do you know, I did a couple. Instinctive "I can't" and doing it anway. Yes, Yoda's echo changed the try to do.

I really like the clothes at Title Nine. The sizes (and cost) have seemed impossible for me. So, planning for a recent trip, I modified. I bought a skort: sporty, comfy, nice enough for work. I bought a very comfortable cotton dress, easy on and off, could even pop over a swimsuit. These clothes move, as I've been moving for several months now. So, it was disconcerting when I had the thought last night that I'll likely never be in Title Nine size range. I stomped the thought out as quickly as I could. You're working hard on being healthy. Keep moving forward, progress not perfection. Still the thought smolders. I tell myself I have two choices: go back to where I was, 248 pounds, or go forward to where I want to be: fit and healthy.

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    I totally understand! I have had two weeks of crummy thinking, but I still checked in on Spark People everyday and I just had to wait for the darkness to pass. I'm realizing that sometimes this is just part of the journey, not so much the weightloss, but having goals, surrounding ourselves with positives, and mucking through the bad days, or even weeks. I see it with everyone. Nobody said this would be easy, but the beauty and the secret is that we have what most people don't, we have a PLAN and a process. Hang in there, this too shall pass! We are all out here for you and for each other. I look forward to seeing my little group of spark friends everyday, no matter how I'm feeling about my progress. Winter to summer has been a hard transistion for me, but I'll make sure I check in everyday and keep on trying. Lots of hugs from Nebraska.
    2577 days ago
    Woohoo, you did it! You can get fit and healthy. Just keep on keeping on. You WILL get there. :)
    2577 days ago
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