I can'ts are creeping back
Friday, May 04, 2012
Habits are strong, for good: 5 fruits and veggies, 8 glasses of water a day. And for bad: negative thinking. I was doing the 18 minute cardio-strength training video from an email this past week. It got to the burpees or whatever they're called: prop on your toes, crouch, stand, crouch, back to your toes. My 8 year old daughter does this in about 30 seconds. The video took it much slower, thank God. the first few rotations, I told myself I couldn't do it: my wrists would get sprained from my body weight, my face slamming into the floor when my arms give out will probably break a bone or two, and I have final exams I need to give. Then, I tried it, and what do you know, I did a couple. Instinctive "I can't" and doing it anway. Yes, Yoda's echo changed the try to do.
I really like the clothes at Title Nine. The sizes (and cost) have seemed impossible for me. So, planning for a recent trip, I modified. I bought a skort: sporty, comfy, nice enough for work. I bought a very comfortable cotton dress, easy on and off, could even pop over a swimsuit. These clothes move, as I've been moving for several months now. So, it was disconcerting when I had the thought last night that I'll likely never be in Title Nine size range. I stomped the thought out as quickly as I could. You're working hard on being healthy. Keep moving forward, progress not perfection. Still the thought smolders. I tell myself I have two choices: go back to where I was, 248 pounds, or go forward to where I want to be: fit and healthy.