Never been so big

Thursday, May 03, 2012

I went to the doctor this afternoon for a fever and cough and got on the scale. I feel like a fat lard ass. I've gained 15 pounds in 6 months. I'm disgusted with myself. I know better than this and I just can't seem to get over my addiction to food. When things start getting stressful, I eat. I've read the books, articles, etc. Nothing helps. The answer must be to remove some of the stress in my life. But how? I have to work. I'm sick and can't work out. Injured my foot before that, couldn't work out. Taking an online class, have to do that for work. Teenage children are soooo difficult, can't get rid of them! Relationship with boyfriend not as great as it used to be. Ex-husband is a pain. Father's health is failing. Mother needs back surgery and must take care of her. Car needs new tires and the damn ants have taken over the kitchen! Oh yeah and there's always housecleaning, laundry, dinner...It's no wonder my diet is taking a back seat. I'm just getting by here. What to do?
Alright, lets start with something easy. Ants- that might be a good stress buster actually. Killing ants could be fun, right?!
Online class-don't procrastinate, just do the work and get it done. Only 2 more weeks of that.
Make the kids help more around the house. (ugh, I smell a battle) or, just let the housework go for now.
Boyfriend-need to spice things up, we are stuck in a rut. Need to do something fun, but I'm too freaking busy! Need a date night once I'm not sick.
Don't know what to do about ex-that's why I divorced him.
Parents- I'll just do what I need to do and see if I can get my brothers to help out in some way.
Workout-working out is a great stress reliever for me, and it sucks that I haven't been able to exercise for several weeks now. Once I'm over this latest virus I should be good to go.
Okay, I feel a little better. But I need a back up plan in case I can't exercise sometimes. What else can I do to relieve stress? I guess I'll think on that and let you know tomorrow.
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    I can relate as I have lived most of my life medicating myself with food.

    Over the last few months I have worked on consciously substituting activities for food. I know that you are doing that with the Finding your Happy plan...so keep that up.

    Teens are a battle -- been there and survived as my boys are 26 and 28 now. You have to find the leverage...car, money, whatever. They don't do their assigned chores, then no car etc. I actually had a list of who did what, when. Do reason they can't vacuum, do a load of laundry etc.

    I have no boyfriend so can't relate to that. I do have an ex and luckily don't have to deal with him as the children are grown and we have been divorce for 4 years.

    So, one step at a time; one, choice at a time....we will get there!

    2181 days ago
  • DEE1221
    Right now: Shut yourself in a quite room, sit in a comfortable chair, have a litttle glass of wine or if you would rather, a nice cup of tea and let it all pass for a few minutes.

    I know easier said than done. Just take care of yourself!!
    2184 days ago
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