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The weirdest feeling ever

Thursday, May 03, 2012

My husband and I both work full time jobs. He's an attorney and I'm involved in social work/therapy. Both of us do stressful work and have enough to do to fill 24 hours every day. Regardless, we also have two little boys, an older daughter, two dogs, six chickens and a household to run. It is often hard to fit in a workout.

Since beginning my new life style, I have committed to doing a significant amount of cardio twice each week- preferring to do two 60 minute Zumba classes where I can see friends, enjoy the music and dance. I think of this as social time, a dance lesson or even party time- but never exercise.

Exercise has always been a dirty word to me. It meant hurting, sweating and doing something painful for way longer than ever "necessary". It was never enjoyable, always forced and often painful. Exercise was something to be avoided at all costs.

After doing Zumba twice a week for the past three months, this week I ran into a sticky situation. Due to work schedules and home-life responsibilities, I was not able to go to Zumba as planned during the week. As I talked with my husband about our schedules and plans, I came to the realization that I would miss a Zumba session. I was sad, though it took me a minute to figure out why.

The people, I will see them again in a few days. The music, I can listen to it on my Ipod- but the feeling my body gets *from dancing for an hour straight* was something that would be missed.

And so, to fill the void that Zumba left today, I found myself on the elliptical machine in our bedroom. Headphones on, I jammed out to the same Reggaeton that I would have been grooving to at the studio. I told myself I "had" to do 10 minutes- but as I started, I found myself listening to more music and thus doing more exercise- three times as much as I had intended.

It was strange. Without going to Zumba, I missed exercising. I experienced a feeling that I HAD to do something. I NEEDED to feel my heart beat faster and for sweat run down my neck. I think I actually WANTED to exercise, or at least wanted the feeling- the adrenaline that exercise offers.

It was the weirdest feeling ever, and something never expected. I indulged in the desire to exercise. It felt OK as I was doing it and INCREDIBLE afterwards.

My body is becoming accustomed to this, my mind and spirit too. Exercise is becoming something I not only need, but WANT to do. I never expected to WANT to exercise.

It's a weird feeling.
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    That is FANTASTIC!
    For me, it's the endorphin release, I think I am an addict now!
    If I don't get my heart pumping I feel a bit off!
    2200 days ago
    Good for you for sticking to your plan, AND getting in a better workout than you thought! I am totally with you on the Zumba obsession, it's the best! (Plus it makes very-uncoordinated-me feel like a dancing goddess.) Way to go! emoticon
    2210 days ago
  • LIBELULITA're now definately on the way to this being your new lifestyle. When we start out it's hard to imagine that your body would ever ask for exercise, but it does start to crave it. I'm glad you've reached this important goal post......yayyyyy!! emoticon emoticon
    2210 days ago
    aahhhhh YAYYYYYY!!! The BEST the first time you miss the feeling of exercise!! Ohhhh girrrrrl, your life is going to explode into awesome territory in the next little bit :)

    I'm very excited for you!!
    2210 days ago
  • MAGIK0731
    That is AWESOME!!! There is no better high than a healthy ALIVE high & I know exactly what you are talking about.

    I have never taken a Zumba class but I am very curious and my curiosity grows stronger and stronger bc I hear SO many good things about it. I am going to look into one and hopefully I don't have to join a gym bc I have found the exercises I have learned through SP gave me the results I want and fit my body. All the gym gives me is bulk. I know its all about the program you are on but I have found that my own resistance is the best resistance and that is free, so...:)

    2211 days ago
    That is awesome!!! I miss the feeling that exercise gives me when i dont go too. So glad you were able to rock it out!!
    2211 days ago
    It's weird that exercise becomes a part of life we look forward to. I like the feeling of accomplishment that comes when you're finished. I also know that deal we make where you just agree to do a little but once you're on the machine, it becomes more. That feeling is pretty good too.
    2211 days ago
    Yay is all I can say!! If you are missing it, that means you are getting used to the exercise high! Congratulations, I hope IM NEXT!! LOL

    2211 days ago
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