It finally clicked!!
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
For the past two months I have not been making any progress with my weight. The scale stays the same, at least it's not going up. I had to drive to a conference today for work, a 3 hour drive up and 3 hours back for a 2 hour meeting! Made no sense to me but I was being paid for it. There were 3 other ladies in my car with me going to this. On the drive home we were talking about some of the points brought up and that is when it clicked, My hours were changed from 6am-3pm to now working 7am-4pm. The gym is packed at 4, even to get on the weight equipment. When I got off at 3 I could go right in, change and right out on the equipment. So I haven't been going to the gym, trying to do it all at home.
Also, I am so mentally exhausted when I come home that I don't want to do anything. I have basically gone in to survivor mode at work, try to get done what I can and realize that tomorrow is another day. That is hard for me because I have never been as far behind as I am now. But I am doing the job of 2 people so something has to give. My supervisors don't seem to be too concerned with getting me any help so it must not be too important to them.
My new mantra " I am only one person and am not super human. I will accomplish all that I can and accept that some will be left. I will take care of ME because I am special."
I need to get back to basics and start over so that is what I will do.