Tuesday, May 01, 2012
No, I wasn’t actually ON vacation; that’s in July.
I was taking a little vacation from dealing. From watching everything I eat, from getting much... or, y’know, any... exercise, other than that which I get in the course of a normal day (some days, plenty! Others, not so much).
I accomplished a lot. Not as much as I’d have liked; I’ve got plenty of the rose studs posted to Etsy, and more still to post. But I haven’t gotten any jackets up yet. Part of that has been recalcitrant wire; I know what I want to do, but the wire doesn’t want to behave itself and do what I tell it. And of course, life does intrude; there were holidays, and family visits, and injuries, and work, and... well, LIFE, and what have you; all of these things interfere with my getting all of the things done that I want to. But I did get a fair amount done.
I have not been eating well. That’s been a trend for a while, but the last few weeks, I’ve been pretty much awful. Between my sister in law spoiling me rotten at Easter with an abundance of gluten-free food (and gluten-free baked goods. Those chocolate chip cookies... I could have lived forever on those...), and then me making my own batches of gluten-free cupcakes for an office bake sale (they came out really, really, really well. Yum), I started on a tear with sweets for a while. Lately, I’ve been snacking on salty, chip-like things (On the Border tortilla chips, and last night, I bought Fritos, too), which I almost never do. I’m just HUNGRY. All the time. Cheese, cold cuts, chips, faux-bready things, hot dogs, desserts... I’m on the see-food diet. *sigh*
I’ve been very pointedly NOT checking my weight. It’s not like I didn’t know what I was doing.
What’s interesting is that my portion sizes have been, for the most part, pretty small. So that’s something. It ain’t much, but it’s something.
Regardless, today’s the day I’ve arbitrarily chosen as my day to come back from vacation. At least, as far as food tracking and exercise. I think it’ll be harder to give up yummy naughty things like cheese (not that a 2% American slice or a 35 calorie Laughing Cow Queso with Chipotle wedge are all THAT bad, but they do add up) or Glutino Vanilla Sandwich Cookies. And I’ve got a brandy-new bag of Fritos and a new package of roasted garlic hummus to eat them with. But all things in moderation, my friends, and all things accompanied by appropriate quantities of exercise.
As I start back up with a fitness regimen, though I have to be a little careful with what I do with my right hand, seeing as how I slammed my index finger in a door last Thursday. Apparently, and to my mind, shockingly, it appears to NOT be broken. It is, however, pitch black; it got squeezed so flat that it actually burst in one place (and developed a huge blood blister there afterwards) and got another nasty blood blister in another. The nail may or may not remain intact; no way of knowing at this time. The pain has abated significantly; it only hurts (and then only slightly) if I touch the black bits, now, as opposed to any time any part of my fingertip touched or was touched by anything whatsoever. So I can’t keep using it as an excuse; time to get back on the horse. ;-)
I have to say, I was disappointed by the latest Sparkpeople DVD. I thought I’d enjoy it; I like the online videos. But although I can’t say I’ve been through ALL of the workouts on the disc, I’ve yet to be particularly impressed by it. It’s not fun, and I need for it to be fun in order to get me to actually DO it. It’s a perfectly acceptable workout disc, but I could tell very quickly that I was going to get bored with it almost immediately. I’ve had more success with the Wii than I’ve ever had with a DVD, but even then... I do eventually get bored (or, in the case of the Biggest Loser and EA Sports Active v. 1, 1.5 and 2, frustrated due to sensor failure before I even get the chance to be bored) and stop doing it, just because it’s no fun.
What I really need is a personal trainer, who will change things up for me constantly, keep things entertaining, make me accountable for my actions (or lack thereof), make allowances for my various and sundry health issues (e.g. no Downward Dog, due to 3 days of pain and misery afterwards, or making sure that when I’m doing weight training, my shoulders aren’t creeping up towards my ears, as they have a tendency to do), and be wonderful and marvelous and not make me feel uncomfortable or useless or broken or ugly or weirded out.
Oh, and I need them to be pretty much free.
So... yeah. THAT’s gonna happen, clearly.
In the absence of a perfect, on-call, free personal trainer... it’s gotta be me. I already know what works, so I need to do it. I need to get more Wii games (I’d love to rent, rather than buy, Zumba Fitness 2. I’d like to try it, but I’m hesitant to buy it. I really enjoy Just Dance 3, and it makes me think that even though I’m a TERRIBLE dancer, I’d enjoy Zumba. That said, I’ve watched people do Zumba IRL, and I knew immediately that I COULD NOT DO IT, so I’m not certain it’s a good choice for me. I also either need Wii Fit Plus back, either by retrieving it from the person I lent it to, or more likely just buying it all over again), and I need to pick up a DVD to help me with weight training. I bought those dumbbells months ago, and I’ve only ever even opened the case once. I’d like very much to get past lifting only 3lbs at a shot. I LIKE lifting weights, I’m just not sure what I’m supposed to be doing. I’ve already got a DVD in my cart at Amazon; just trying to decide if I want to go forward with the purchase. I have to pay my bills, first. ;-)
I am, however, drinking water. That’s a step; I’ve been avoiding that, too. It’s always my first step in a backslide; I drop the regular ingestion of water. Why? Because I don’t LIKE it, that’s why! I know I need it; I just don’t want to. And it is sooooo easy to give in to my inner 2 year old and say, “Don’t wanna!” Problem is, my inner Mom is a weenie, and doesn’t behave like a Mom should; she gives in to terrible 2 year-old me and says, “OK. You can have decaf coffee, then. Or decaf Diet Coke. But that’s it! Oh, you want leaded coffee? You really shouldn’t; it’s not good for you. Well... OK, if you really want to.”
Inner 2-year-old me is spoiled rotten.
OK, I’ve now had two cups of water, and a perfectly healthy lunch, breakfast, and AM snack. I didn’t even have a 2nd banana at breakfast, which is really hard, because I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE bananas. That said, I usually don’t have that much trouble behaving, during the day; all of my meals are laid out in advance. It’s the evenings when I have trouble. I’ve already planned to have a salad and a Smart Ones dinner tonight, though, so as long as I don’t stray too terribly far from that, I should be OK....
Has anyone actually tried that Yonanas thing? I’m curious about it. Not that I have $50 to spend on it right now (as I said – I can’t even order the weights DVD yet, and that’s only $14), but at least I can plan for it, if I’m told it’s brilliant. My issues with it so far are a) I have bupkes in the way of counter space, b) it sounds REALLY REALLY loud, and c) It looks like a slightly more solid version of a smoothie, and I can do that in my blender. Which is another appliance I don’t have the counter space for, so it doesn’t get used nearly as often as I’d like for the purpose of making smoothies.
I think I need to have some decaf coffee, now, though.
OK, OK. Last half hour of the day. I’ve wasted enough time rambling through yet another weird, stream-of-consciousness blog. I was gone. I’m back. It’s happened before, it’ll most likely happen again. Hopefully later rather than sooner.
Hope everyone’s been well.
Talk to you soon.