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The Fat Girl in the Mirror

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror. Granted I’ve not lost everything I’ve wanted to yet, but I’ve lost a lot (56 pounds to date).

I used to look at pictures of myself and hated what I saw—mostly because it didn’t match the vision of me in my head. Now I look at pictures taken of me and I am amazed at how much thinner I am, and yet when I look in the mirror I see the fat girl.

It’s not a matter of self confidence. I know I am a great mom, student, teacher-to-be, friend, girlfriend, lover, and the list goes on. I know when to be grown up and I know how to be silly. I’m a lot of fun to be around.

The picture in my head is still the same as it was before. Similar to the pictures taken of me now. So, why do I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror?
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    I've often wondered the same thing. I swear sometimes I look in the mirror and all I see is the fat girl. But every once in a while I see the thinner me and feel so surprised. I wonder if posting a before picture on the mirror to have something to compare with would retrain our minds. I think I might try that!
    2213 days ago
    Weight loss is one big mind game. What you're feeling is quite normal, I think. I've lost about 110 pounds, surpassed my original goal weight, and reached a very healthy weight...and I still see the fat girl in the mirror sometimes. Sometimes I actually do feel like I'm totally not fat, but sometimes it feels like I'm just as fat as I used to be. I''m hoping that it's just a matter of time before the skewed body image gets straightened out in my head permanently; hopefully we'll both come to accept our new bodies soon. :)
    2214 days ago
    Two words.....SELF LOVE!

    Stop judging what you see and learn to love yourself for who you are, how you are. If you are doing the right things, feeling good, and learning to love yourself, it will all fall in place. I have photos of myself from long ago that I specifically remember think that I was hideously fat. Oh how I wish I could be "fat" like that again. Sure, I wasn't pixie model thin, but I was OK. We have to stop wanted more and more and learn to love ourselves and accept that we are wonderful no matter what. At least this is what I am working on....DAILY.
    2214 days ago
  • RAMONA1954
    It takes a while to retrain your brain to see what is actually there. I still have many days when I see the fatter me (67lbs down now). I guess it's because that's a sight we are so used to and this new person is a stranger to us so we're more comfortable seeing the old "me". You're doing great! Be proud of all you have accomplished. emoticon
    2214 days ago
    I go through the exact same things when I look in the mirror. You are doing awesome!
    2214 days ago
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