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The Weekly Mile: Week 3 (How Do You Run When Your Heart Is Broken?)

Monday, April 30, 2012

It's been coming for a few months now. But I've been in denial about it - trying to draw out the good stuff as long as possible. No time is a good time to break up with someone, but eventually it's only a matter of prolonging the inevitable, which only serves to make the bleed worse when it finally happens.

After a great vacation in Florida from Wednesday to Saturday where I spent time walking, swimming and sunning, I ripped off the relationship bandaid last night with my boyfriend of almost a year. It hurts like hell. And right now the wound is pretty gaping. It's going to take a long time to heal from this one.

Thank god I have running this week to keep me occupied. Although - it's also a lot of hours to think about what I've done while pounding out mile after painful mile.

This isn't a happy training blog today. But it's a blog about moving on. And knowing that I'm doing the absolute BEST thing for myself, regardless of how much it hurts.

Week 3 Schedule (Completed):

Sun - Rest (Benefit Event)
Mon - Rest (3 hours of heavy house cleaning)
Tue - Rest
Wed - Walked the airport between flights
Thu - Walk & Swim (30 minutes of each)
Fri - Walk & Swim (30 minutes of each)
Sat - Walk & Swim (30 minutes of each)

Total Weekly Miles: About 4 miles of walking only - but this was my week off!
Total Weekly Calories Burned: 1883
Weekly Weigh-In: 189.6

Week 4 Schedule:

Sun - 3 miles
Mon - Rest
Tue - 12 miles
Wed - chiro & swim
Thu - Rest
Fri - 5 miles
Sat - Zumba
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    emoticon Take care of yourself right now. That's what is going to help the best. Sending good boogaboogas your way.
    2478 days ago
    2478 days ago
    Sometimes in our lives we come to a point where we have to decide what's right and what's easy.

    If you feel that you did the right thing for YOU - then everything will fall in place in time. It takes more courage to break up than to stay in an unhappy relationship.

    Sending hugs your way! emoticon
    2479 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    *tight hugs*

    Im sorry, but if you are feeling deep down you have done the right thing... then twee as it sounds, only time will make things hurt less.

    Take care of yourself xx
    2485 days ago
    emoticon to hear this.

    Sometimes, the right decision can be the hardest and most painful, and I speak from 1st hand experience, but I can also testify to the fact that, it will get better and time is a great healer (as cliché as it sounds)

    Take care xx

    2485 days ago
    I'm sorry the relationship didn't work out. Sometimes the right people come along at the wrong time. It is much easier to work on self improvement when there are only your needs to consider. Unfortunately doing what's right for you can still hurt.
    Just go ahead and pound all that emotional detritus into the gound. I bet you break your plateau in no time.

    2485 days ago
    So sorry to hear it, sweetheart. It hurts no matter what...

    2486 days ago
    Ugh, breakups suck. I asm so sorry you have to go through all of it... Know that you aren't alone. There are TONS of sparkers here for you :)

    2486 days ago
  • PJH2028
    Bravo bravissima for your still solid strong and surely-yourself voice. One day at a time you will recognize your SELF and build your next world of happy joyful life. Relationship stuff is so f'g confounding. Indeed. So many delay making changes - especially endings or transitions - that are needed or inevitable. I applaud the strength to move forward, to move. And i LOVE that you ARE M O V I N G body mind and spirit. In your corner, here I be, Jenn. xxo
    2486 days ago
    *hugs* Hopefully the running will do more good than harm.
    2486 days ago
  • JEREMY723
    I remember your blogs of a year ago as well, so sorry...take your time emoticon
    2486 days ago
    I am sorry!!!! That is rough... I can't believe it has been almost a year!!! I remember when you blogged about him in the beginning. I hope your running helps you through this difficult time!!! (((hugs)))
    2486 days ago
    emoticon Sending hugs your way. You are a strong woman...I'm here for you. I'm sorry you are in pain. The great thing about running is it helps take stress away and I'm hoping it also works as a pain reliever for you, too. Hang in there.
    2486 days ago
    emoticon Sending emoticon
    You are wise to face it. Seconding some of the other comments here. Running and even fast walking is how I have mentally processed so many bad experiences in my life. You'll get through but I'm so sorry you are in pain... emoticon
    2486 days ago
    I'm sorry things didn't work out for you two. Congrats on keeping up with your training plans and giving your body a much needed rest!
    2486 days ago
    Sorry to hear about the breakup, they are never easy even when you know that it has to be done. Just concentrate on enjoying your life and great things will happen! I met my husband when I wasn't at all thinking of looking for someone. (I had been robbed the week before by an ex-boyfriend.) We couldn't be happier. It is interesting that you plateau in weight loss has been about the same time you have been dating him......

    2486 days ago
    Aw, hon, I'm really sorry. Breakups always suck, even when they're both necessary and your idea. I hope it gets better soon! In the meantime, just focus on doing the needful and seek release in running. emoticon
    2486 days ago
  • ANISSA331
    time....its the only way to get past it emoticon
    2486 days ago
    No words to help, but, I hope your heart feels better soon. emoticon
    2486 days ago
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