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Warped Image needs to change.

Monday, April 30, 2012

As of late alot of people have been commenting on my changed body shape.. comments have ranged from You have slimmed down alot to i could tell you have got some muscle when you did that box jump . But the image in my head has not changed...

For instance
I was looking online at buying some clothes and i selected a size large standard practice due to being a size 14 LIKE 3 MONTHS AGO only to really need a medium . Thanks to my awesome co-workers who helped with the sizing issue.

So my perception of myself has not changed at all. People are saying i look good .. ive lost heaps of weight but in all honesty I don't feel what they see.
Is this a bad thing? I don't know time will tell i suppose but i'm curious to know when will time tell? Will i finally feel how i actually look?

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    It's a good idea to get a full length mirror and look at yourself. I still get a surprise.
    2213 days ago
    You are not alone. I, too, am experiencing the same thing. Some people have told me to quit and say similar things, yet the weight charts indicate I have another 30 lbs. to go. I am going for an average weight goal for my frame (medium/large--I think) and adjust up or down once I get there. BUT, in the meantime, I still see myself as fat! . . . as I have been most of my life. The skinny me is almost here and I don't really know her. I still have flab and skin to firm and I am sure I will get comfortable with the new me, in time. I look at people to compare myself too and observe the clothes they wear to take cues for how I want to dress the new me. I like all the benefits of my new size such as easily setting in a chair, getting up and down easier, average sized clothes, etc. I still remind myself I do not have to shop in the plus sizes anymore--wow, big milestone for me. Seeing myself as a normal size may never fully be realized. That overweight girl/woman will forever be a part of who I was and the effects it has on my life. I see this nearly 'normal' size person slowly emerging, and yes, although it seems a little surreal or warped, I know it is a better way and a very good thing. I am learning to accept her (the new me) a day at a time.
    2219 days ago
    I am going through the exact same thing. People keep calling me "skinny" (I am sure this is to be polite), and telling me there just isn't much of me left, (they have their eyes closed I am sure!) and I really, really, REALLY can't see the same thing they do. I look in the mirror and while I see someone who is "less" there, I don't see a person who is almost where she wants to be! I am hoping the same thing, that my head catches up to my body and I see what they do, they seem to like it, I would like to also!
    P.S. Although....when I am walking my shadow looks AWESOME!!
    2219 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/30/2012 12:44:54 AM
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