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What doesn't kill you....

Sunday, April 29, 2012

I am sure if you all listen to the radio, you have heard Kelly Clarkson's song "Stronger"?
Well I have come to adopt the phrase "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger" as my mantra the last couple months. It is the first song I play when I start my walk/jog & I actually did find out that after I took that first step, it didn't kill me just makes me stronger! It is so much easier to be able to do what I should be doing for myself & should have probably started a long, long time ago instead of letting insecurities get in the way. Although as I was walking/jogging this morning my thoughts kind of went along the lines of insecurity. I still find myself hiding behind my big bulky sweatshirt (not to mention that it seems to be a lot longer than I remember) & sweat pants thinking "what if some one I know sees me? My DH's friend lives right next to the old football field/track behind my house that I use (because I am afraid to go around the neighborhood) & I find myself wondering if he knows it is me. I am constantly watching to make sure nothing is too jiggly when I jog because I can still hear my mother's words of wisdom in my head (I know, even the music doesn't drown out that voice)! I go out in the early morning when it is still somewhat dark & the town is still some what asleep just so no one knows it is me out there. One day I know I will

So I guess what I am trying to get at is that it hasn't killed me yet so I know I am getting stronger!! That song could not have come out at a better time in my life! Now if only I could just feel a little less insecure about myself I could do just about anything! emoticon
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    Thank you! Yes it is hard to let go of many years of insecurity brought on by being told that you are no good & worthless! It wasn't until just recently that I started believing my DH in that I am worth something! Now it is just a matter of finding my inner self!

    2182 days ago
    Old habits die hard, and we do have insecurities brought on by years of not feeling "good enough." Keep doing what you're doing....getting stronger every day...and one day soon you'll feel ready to burst out of your shell. Can't wait to see that happen! :)
    2182 days ago
  • MPLANE37
    People at work frequently remind me of the good old "if it doesn't kill you, it will make you stronger"... It provides motivation for me too especially when things don't work out the way I like them to.
    2182 days ago
  • JEANIE07
    i would like to offer you a bit of support, and say to you that maybe you need to think about all the positive changes youve made. so what if something jiggles, we are women we are meant to jiggle now bounce thats a different story ( if its that be like me i waer a swimming cossie underneath even if im at horse riding lol )

    stop worrying about what people think, noone will ever judge you as harshly as you are doing to yrslf, they will see someone trying to get fit and probably youll be making them feel guilty in some way, ie maybe i should be out there enjoying my life as much as her.

    so dont care about anyone else, pamper you, love the gain in yr fitness, put a smile on yr face, and show the world that yre in charge ( you may not believe it at first but youll be amazed at the change in how folks treat you )

    good luck and well done on all yr changes xx emoticon
    2182 days ago
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