Finally back on track
Saturday, April 28, 2012
I have had a really rough start to 2012 and we are already nearly 5 months in! My grandma, who I am very close to was incredibly sick and nearly died during 2 back to back hospitalizations. I missed quite a bit of work to go be with her since I am a nurse and wanted to be there to make sure the right things were happening. (I tried not to step on toes, but come on! It's my grandma!!)
I had pneumonia and was very sick for 1.5 months, still don't have my full energy or lung capacity back so the 5k training has been put on hold for now. Then my youngest, who wasn't yet two, had a terrible allergic reaction to an antibiotic and had to be hospitalized. We have been hit with nearly $15,000 in unexpected bills thanks to illness, car trouble and the military wanting to take $3000 back from my husband due to an error on their part even though he's been out for 2 years. So my stress level has been very high and taking care of myself was the last thing on the list, when it should've been first. I've also been struggling with nausea and some vomiting for the last year, and it's been getting worse since March. So I'm on compazine every day which helps but somedays I struggle to eat once and other days I can't stop stuffing my face. I'm trying to be good and make good decisions, but as for anyone it's difficult.
So I've finally lost a bit of weight. I'm 3 lbs from my lowest since kids, 5 lbs from where I was when I got pregnant and 18 from my goal. If I can reach my goal I may try for an additional 5 lbs but I think I'd be pretty happy there, honestly! I've gone from being a size 18 two years ago to being able to wear anywhere from a 7 in DKNY to a 12 in Lucky Brand. Sizing is so weird!! My body is definitley not as tight as I'd like it to be but I'm thankful to be losing at all since that dang year long increase and plateau. I started back to the gym last night. My work out buddy, thankfully for her, found another job after a few months of unemployment so she can only go to the gym in the evenings while my husband is at work and we don't have the extra money right now for me to pay for my kids to go to the gym daycare. But we've made a standing date for Thursday nights Club Dance class since my husband has that evening off. I'm very excited to start getting back to some normalcy (ha, what is that??) in our lives. If we can avoid further minor disasters we'll be ok. I'm very thankful we are for the most part healthy and happy. My husband is actually outside right now finishing up our chicken coop. We have 5 chicks and are so excited to start getting our own organic eggs around October when the girls are old enough to start laying. We are also going to start some raised beds once this project is done. I'm very happy to be able to teach our daughters about animals and food, learning where your food comes from and to think about what you put in your body. They are both in picky toddler stages right now but I'm not a 24 hour kitchen so if they don't like the healthy food I make they usually decide they do like it a few hours later when they get hungry enough and then say it's their favorite. It's amazing how many foods they actually do like once they try them!! The oldest even asks for brocolli for a bedtime snack :-) Anyway, I need to go take some ice water (even though it's 45 degrees) to my hard working hubby. Wish me continued success, cuz I need it!