Friday, April 27, 2012
Today I was feeling a bit down. I have been exhausted all week, and it seems that I’ve had to change my meal planner almost on a daily basis because after I exercise I have no energy left to cook what I wanted. Even though I’ve done really well staying within my nutrition values and making sure that I’m getting at least 20 minutes of exercise in daily I have felt so out of whack this week.
I think I know what the problem is…first, this was finals week in school and I just finished on Wednesday. Secondly, I believe that since I have started to watch my sodium intake that my blood pressure medicine is making my blood pressure go down to far. Thirdly, I’m not getting enough time with God. Sure, I had church on Sunday, Bible study on Monday, and daily devotionals with my team, but I’m not taking the time to actually study my Bible like I was before I started my classes. Nothing can replace the feeling you get when you are spiritually full. I struggle with trying too hard to do things on my own, without God’s help. I have to constantly remind myself that He is in control and not me.
Well, these problems have been solved now, school is out for two weeks, I’m seeing the doctor next Thursday, and I’m getting back into God’s word now that homework is all done! BUT, that didn’t stop me from wanting to step on that scale this morning. My weekly weigh-ins are usually on Mondays. Well…I did a no-no and weighed myself this morning. I’m not going to say what the scale said, but I believe that God understood that I needed a little pick me up this morning and allowed me to see some progress.
This blog is titled dangerous motivation because using the scale as a motivation tool can be just that. Dangerous. There is no guarantee that your body will cooperate, especially after you have eaten breakfast! So, while this was a motivation factor for me this morning, I want everyone to know, it is not something that I use regularly to pick me up. For that, I have a wonderful group of friends that I have found on SparkPeople that have done an awesome job keeping me accountable and motivated!