Feel like a one "woman" army sometimes
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I used to be the girl that had an insatiable appetite for all foods that were bad for you. If you couldn't finish a meal or desert I'd be the one you'd go to. People would marvel at how much I could put away! Even at that point of my life I was maybe 10lbs heavier than I am now. But believe me, being thin doesn't mean I was healthy and that that type of nutrition was OK.
I was always active with my workouts but then I wanted to "feel better" on the inside too, so I started watching what I ate. Of course then people started voicing concern. Why would someone who doesn't have a weight issue need to watch what they ate? I would get ridiculed for picking healthier options or bringing my own food. Those who once got a kick out of watching me devour a desert meant for 4 (probably) were almost offended when I would pass.
Why is choosing to be healthy questionable if you don't have a weight problem? People would mention that I shouldn't be afraid of food, of which I'd respond that I wasn't. I love food...real food! It's the chemicals and additives, fake food that I'm afraid of! I actually had a co-worker suggest that I eat a cheese burger in front of people to get them off my back. Of course I wouldn't as I'm vegetarian... I declined.
Sometimes I do feel isolated at work and with the friends I had then and still have now. Junk food doesn't sit well with me anymore to the point that I feel sick and get a headache. I realize that my true friends and supportive family will respect my choices as I don't question theirs. It is hard being thin and proactively healthy. In some ways I'm proud of my conviction as I stay true to my lifestyle when it would be so much easier to be like the crowd. Other times I wrestle with knowing it would be so much easier to just be like the majority and fit in.
I feel so much healthier now, am more alert and am happier! I like choosing to be healthy and take pride in that. I just wish that people wouldn't judge the outside layer before getting the whole picture.