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Families are complicated

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

And my family seems to complicate my weight loss efforts. Emotional eating is a huge trigger for me, and it's been an especially pressure-filled week. 1. My 3 kids. I've been trying to get my teen to be more self-responsible for taking his medication. Which means verifying that he took every dose, batting down his "I can do it later" rebuttals. Especially exhausting to face first thing in the morning. My original goal was to have him get himself up, take his meds, until the 2 days he didn't. He can't function well, getting along with sibs, family, school without the help of medication. I decided perhaps that was too big a step, and I'll have him just focus on evening meds right now. My younger two have standardized state testing this week. Good: no homework. Bad: emotional meltdowns. 2. My siblings. My neice is getting married in St Simons GA in 3 weeks. Family reunion; I haven't seen most of my sibs in at least 2 years. (we were 10 kids, 7 still living) Spoke with one sister last night on the phone, who was saying she needed to get new clothes, as she's gained weight. We hung up, and I ate chocolate chip cookies. I feel such a need to fit in amongst my 5 remaining sisters! It's MY life with very little input from my siblings most days. Why is my focus drifitng away from me being healthy, fit , happy with myself? 15 years ago, I'd lost about 70 pounds. I felt and looked good. Two comments triggered my implosion and weight regain: my Mother telling my sister, "You look good having lost weight, but Ellen's lost more and she looks better." Kaboom! My mother in law: I had a dream that you were thin and I didn't recognize you. Kaboom! Add this to the dailyspark blog about healing: give yourself compassion, patience and today's newletter: let go of the guilt for emotional eating and focus on feeling powerful for healthy decisions. It's like stepping through quicksand! I will, however, keep battling my way through, keep moving forward to healthier me.
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    2552 days ago
  • MEMEME75
    I think the number of people out there who are emotional eaters is completely underestimated. And I am in the same boat. Lately what I have noticed is in those stressed moments when I really feel like eating my feelings, I have noticed how stressed I feel about saying no to those un-needed cravings.

    Stay strong. That instant gratification feeling will pass if you just hold on a ride the wave, so to speak, and not give into the emotional eating. And it's gets easier each time.

    2552 days ago
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