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Everything Will Be OK

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I woke up this morning dreaming that I was supposed to be giving a presentation but I couldn't locate it on my MacAir nor remember how to use the finder. A crowd of people were patiently waiting for me. I was fumbling around and panicky. Even more confounding: I had my presentation material down cold. But I wasn't willing to just give it without using slides. What a bad dream!

On twitter today, a friend pointed out this site:

If you go there, click on the big make everything OK button. I did, and it made me laugh and feel a lot better.

It has been way too long since I've blogged.

I've been waiting for everything to be OK before I did (I am about 12 pounds over my goal weight) and have been grumpy about that for months. After all, I exercise nearly every day for an hour (running, studio cycling). I eat maybe 1800 calories a day more or less (haven't been tracking). So why have I been slowly gaining back the weight?

Obviously, everything isn't OK.

I'm 59. My metabolism gets slower every passing year. I'm 5 ft 3. If I check my basal metabolism rate I only need about 1300 calories a day to survive.

Why do I think I can maintain my weight when 1)I don't track what I am eating; and 2) I am not sure how many calories it takes to maintain my weight?

Well...I'm an optimist. I assumed everything would be OK if I exercised enough and ate sensibly (no need to track all the time).

Yet the reality is that I do eat more than I need to maintain my weight. I usually have around 150-200 calories of dark chocolate most nights. I grab a handful or two of nuts for a snack. I eat similar things every day, but I don't know how many calories I consume. I occasionally go on business trips. There are family celebrations where I am aware of eating too much. I know I don't have an underactive thyroid. I have started strength training. But still...

I had been hoping (for the past 6 months or so) that "everything will be OK, if I just kept up with my exercising."

But I've got to come to grips with the fact that I've got to eat less than I currently am now and track what I'm eating. I can't be casual about what I eat. Plain and simple.

And today is a good day to start tracking.

Everything will be OK as long as I keep up my food awareness. I just know it.
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    Hmmmm. Have you been inside my head for the past few months???
    2158 days ago
    I totally understand the metabolism slow down. Since turning 50, it seems I am doing good to prevent the gain, let alone lose weight!

    2190 days ago
    That link is fabulous! Working in IT, I need that button installed on every computer within my realm.

    Here's to tracking, and losing what we've found again, and being OK.
    2192 days ago
    Aww Rebecca, I can so relate!! I didn't blog most of the winter but got back into it this month. And, each winter I feel like I pack on the pounds too. Not only that, but this age thing and the slow metabolism sucks! I think my body needs less than yours because the scale rarely budges unless I starve myself despite the exercise. But, I keep at it and so will you! Hang in there.
    2193 days ago
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