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A rough day

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Well, I did not feel like going to work today, and when at work I did not want to go and talk to tbe customers. I just do not feel like smiling. I am hoping that it is just some depression coming from the grief of my loss. I came home and had a good cry, then had some wine.
I have connected with some of my cousins online, and they are hoping that I make it back to MN for the anniversary. It feels so good to connect with family, and know that they are glad to meet me as I am. I am hoping that they find grandma's crochet needles.

I have determined that since it seems that nobody else in my dad's family does crochet, I am going to try to continue my grandma's tradition of giving crocheted handtowels to the relatives. I am going to try to figure out the stitch she used, and then give sets to relatives when seen, get married, or any other special event. Plus, I know that mine are going to start wearing out soon, so have to have some to replace. I got plenty of yarn, and figured out how to make a hole, so not it is just doing it once I get the appropiate towels. I have a friend that is going through a rought spot, so I told him that I will have a surprise for him (even if it seems cheesy) when I see him next.

I do not know about most of you, but it seems that people express more surprise/gratitude over something that a personal touch is involved over a completely store bought item. It makes me feel so good when somebody asks me is I made something. I think the towels will be a pleasure to do. So if anybody has a good suggestion of where to find a two-sided hand towel for a fair price, I am open to suggestion so I have somewhere to start on the towels.

Yesterday I did get to the gym. I just walked on the treadmill at a 2.5 incline until my hips finally said they thought they were ready to stop. I kept the speed at 3 mph because I just wanted to go until it was enough. It was interesting that the legs were ready to quit about 5 minutes before the hips were feeling it. I hope that I will be back on track for the gym; tomorrow my gym clothes are going to work so I can go after I finish work.

I guess I am just in a slump right now. I have to continue through it, and be stronger on the other side.
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    Sending big emoticon doll and hope you feel better soon. I really hope that they find your granny's crochet needles for you.
    2187 days ago
    So sorry to hear you had a rough day. We all run into times like that. I hope you find your Grandma's crochet hooks....sometimes it's the small things that have the biggest meanings to us. I have an old Nursing textbook that my Grandmother used when she was in school to get her RN....back in 1907! It means so much to me....

    Grieve as you need to but also try and remember that she would want you to move forward. Your thoughts of recreating her kitchen towels will be a beautiful thing to do in her honor.

    Hugs....big ones...
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    2187 days ago
    You can do it!! Take yourself out of the slump-which we all feel at one time or another!!! Jump the huddle around the bump in the road and continue on with your journey!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2188 days ago
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