One Word

My best friend has been doing this thing where at the beginning of a new year she chooses a word to help guide her mind and behavior.

I don't do New Years Resolutions. I always feel like resolutions are "I will nots" or "no mores" and lets be honest, I don't do absolutes really well.

These past two weeks have been really big for me emotionally and mentally. I have had peace like I've never known before. God has been so good to me and I am realizing that more every single day.

I spoke with my brother tonight and as usual I always hang up the phone feeling challenged. However, my brother also paid me a very large compliment tonight. He told me that I sound grounded, I was talking slower and he felt that I was able to fully express my thoughts whereas typically I am more scattered and get distracted in the middle of a thought.

So tonight, I determined that I need a word.

It was easier to pick one than I thought it would be.

So.

My word is Learn.

It really came down to Return or Learn but I felt that Learn was more appropriate for where I am right now. God is teaching me so much about myself, my history and about where I've faltered.

It's also incredibly appropriate as it is part of my name here on SP. I need to learn to be myself. To not fear rejection, to be what I am meant to be.

Earlier this year my nook died and Josh bought me a Nook Color. I had to get a new cover for it (with little kids in the house, it's just good sense) and the cover I chose was a beautiful turquoise color with a great quote etched into the front, it says "It is never too late, to be what you might have become." ~ George Ellis.

So I'm learning and I'm excited!