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The Right to Decide

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Making a choice,it is something that happens every day and several times a day. I know that a lot of my anxiety comes when I have a decision to make. What usually happens is I try to put it off. If I can’t, I make it and then second guess myself or I feel bad that I don’t follow through on what is important to me. Or even worse yet, I say “Oh what the *bleep*!” I am just going to do whatever I want to and regret it later.
I am making an effort to try and not be so hard on myself. I want to enjoy life and do it in a way that I don’t beat myself up about later. So, I think I make too big a deal out of not achieving my goals and by doing so creating a life with less joy, less pleasure and less satisfaction? If I balance my life and honor myself and my needs then I am sure my choices would make me happier. I think it is important to consider what will work for me. Not in a selfish kind of way but out of my own need for self care.
Not knowing. That is always the scary part. What am I giving up here? What will someone think of me? If the worse can happen, then it probably will happen to me. These kinds of thoughts keep me from growing and living a full and meaningful life. Then there is the next question I need to answer. What is really meaningful for me.? What I need to do is pause, take a breath, relax and put it all in perspective. How I feel is how I am feeling. I can acknowledge that and even not like it. But knowing that feeling and moving on is key.
I can feel good or bad or indifferent, then bring my awareness to what I want, what I prefer, what I wish to have happen. If I take that one moment to consider what I feel, what I am experiencing, and what I want , decisions seems a lot easier. I realize now, that I have been trapped in thinking that my wants and desires don’t really matter that much. I end up focusing on the negative emotions and what is the right thing to do. I gotta accept that there is no perfect answer. Maybe, with this new understanding, I will live life a little more vibrantly. This is all really new to me so I hope I get better at it as I go.
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    What a thoughtful and thought provoking blog. Thanks for sharing your thinking process with us.
    2188 days ago
    Here's to living your "life a little more vibrantly"
    2191 days ago
    You have gained such wonderful insights. emoticon
    2192 days ago
    Love the way you express the insight you've gained on your journey. Blessings and gentleness!
    2192 days ago
    In my struggle to let go of clutter and get organized, it's all the decisions that drive me crazy and make me walk away before I get much done! I so hear you on all this!

    I like your desire to be more gentle, patient and forgiving of yourself. The willingness to act when we are not certain of success is courageous. We may make mistakes. But we can't make progress if we don't do anything!

    Wishing you joy and success. Keep us apprised!

    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    2193 days ago
    I think you're on the right track. Find ways to make the "right" choices the things you already want to do anyway and, for sure, give your needs some priority in your life!
    2193 days ago
    Why is it that we have a hard time making the right choices when it comes to weight lose ?
    2193 days ago
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