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Thursday, April 19, 2012

Ugh, really frustrated with myself today. I had been doing so well! Lost 6 pounds in the past week. Did not have enough calories before dinner, went to grocery store and bought cupcakes for my son's bday party at school tomorrow. I thought I could resist them, and told myself, "you have not eaten enough today, make your chicken dinner and fill up on that rather than bad stuff." I was saying "No!" even as I was eating the first one... then I got on a phone with a friend (who is also going through a custody dispute) and next thing I know, I had eaten five. Yes, FIVE. What in the world???? The later ones may have been b/c I was stressed, or not paying attention to what I was doing, when I ate them... the first one I purposely ate. Why do I sabotage myself like this?? I didn't even enjoy them while I was eating them. Since I have been trying to have less sugar lately, my stomach hurt afterwards. Maybe that will be the impetus to not eat them the next time? (who am I kidding... just cannot have sugar in the house!)
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  • LULUBELLE65
    6 pounds is a great loss; you're to be congratulated!

    As for the cupcakes--live and learn. I know that once I have one cupcake, cookies, slice of cake, dish of ice cream, I am a goner, so the only time I have that sort of thing is when I am out to dinner, or at someone else's house. Next time leave the cupcakes in the car or garage so you are not tempted.

    Tomorrow is a new day. Have a healthy day and don't look back.
    2839 days ago
  • WERNERETTE
    I have been there and totally sabotaged myself in the past too. But you lost 6 lbs this week and that is amazing! Don't let this one slip send you in the wrong direction! Put this behind you, pick yoursef up, dust yourself off and move on!!
    2839 days ago
  • KERRNEL
    We've all been there. I've had a pretty good couple weeks of losses and have avoided my favourite pasta place. To justify it to myself the other night I went there before going to the gym to try and work it off, and even as I ordered it I felt guilty. As I was eating it, I found I wasn't enjoying it as much as I usually do, and it didn't taste as good. I doubt I'll go back for a really long time.

    Have had some sweet cravings lately though. I try and keep some protein bars on-hand for those moments. Pure Protein 20g bars have 18g carb and are chocolate-covered, so they satisfy the sweet tooth and are somewhat healthy. Shouldn't have them regularly, but they've saved me from myself on more than one occasion in the last few weeks.

    Hang in there, sometimes we need to put our hand on the burner to learn not to do it again! And then do an hour of cardio. LOL
    2839 days ago
  • JOYFUL711
    I hear ya, that is why I NEVER, and I do mean NEVER have that kind of food in my house, I have zero willpower when it comes to sweets.

    Don't beat yourself up, just move on, live and learn (then you get Huggies). emoticon
    2839 days ago
  • no profile photo HOTPINKCAMARO49
    Today is the 1st day of the rest of YOUR life! One day at a time.

    Let's focus on the 6 lbs. That is awesome!

    emoticon You go, girl! emoticon
    2839 days ago
  • RONICAB
    This is sooooo hard!!!! I totally understand what you are saying here. I did the same thing too. Sometimes, some kind of emotion will creep up on me and before I even KNOW what I'm doing I have something I don't want, like, or need in my mouth chowing away. Or like you I rationalize my choice.... "I still have a few hundred calories. I'll just eat this so I don't feel deprived." Well I SHOULD deprive myself. I LOVE sugar and carbs. They, and my lack of exercise, got me into this. I'm sorry friend. Just forget about it and know tomorrow is a new day. Oh, drink lots of water to try to flush that stuff out.

    Hugs Sister
    2839 days ago
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