Wednesday, April 18, 2012
So, this morning...practically all of it, I have been praying finally. I had to write it out in a blog post on my normal blog. You can go to the post right here: http://lilliesloves.wordpress.
com/. Let me just say one word. Exhausted.
I was able to talk with Amy, my counselor, on the phone. She gave me a list of things I can do to help move in and through this feelings.
The first thing she told me to do is to ask myself, "How can I show I love myself, uplift yourself, set boundaries and give yourself permission to feel?' Good question, huh? My nutritionist said, "You need to look in the mirror and say, 'I love you, just the way you are.' She said it the other day when we met. So, this is one way I can show myself I love me. I can also show myself I love me by not emotionally dumping on myself more and more today. I can show I love myself by putting up a boundary from subjecting me with some painful parts of my past that are troubling me by putting them in a container under the pile of clean clothes I have yet to fold, hang up or put away. I showed I love myself by writing that blog post about learning to let go. I showed I loved myself by eating a nutritious breakfast. I showed I loved myself by taking a shower. I showed I loved myself when I found time to take time for me. Okay, and, just right now, I stood up and looked myself in the mirror and said, "I love you, just the way you are." I said it twice, and then I began to walk away but turned back to the mirror and said, "No, really. I love you, just the way you are." I got all tingly. I showed I love myself by seeking spiritual guidance from a group of women who I share openly the joys, sadness and ups and downs of life. These are the ways I can show I love myself.
So. What do I have planned for the rest of the day....
o Get papers ready for court tomorrow afternoon
o Eat lunch
o Go to choir practice
o Take a nap (or I wish I could)
o Apply for work at at least 7 places
0 Defrost frozen boneless and skinless chicken tenders for dinner tonight
o Straighten up the house a bit
o Pick my son up from the bus
o Cook dinner
o Eat dinner
o Go to the library
o Attend choir practice
o Give my son a bath
o Read my son a book before tucking him into bed for the night
o Check in
o Believe that God has and will always provide the peace of knowing He provides, cares for me, loves me and wants me to share how He is working in my life
Now. I need to get ready to move onto what I need to do next.