Everything In A Nutshell...An Exploding Nutshell.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Ok. So. Yeah. Life.
As I said in my status, I apologize to everyone for my sudden radio silence, things have just been a little crazy, kind of good, partly horrible, and nothing short of dizzying.
On the weight loss front, in order to make a very long story incredibly short: I have stopped exercising and my eating has been atrocious. Yeah. I was following the 5kYW program religiously, until workout number 10, when my bum knee gave out. I gave it a chance to rest and then resumed, this time with only 1 minute running intervals to build back up and BAM my knee gives out again, only in a much nastier way. The joint was turned in at an odd angle and I was left limping and sidelined until it corrected itself, which, of course, took longer than I had hoped and has officially left me completely off my game. Needless to say, in the middle of discouragement, steadily mounting medical bills (not knee related), work stress, and a new bout of insomnia I gave in to the binging beast in rather spectacular fashion. Continuing to eat even after the nausea and stomach cramps have set in is not an experience that I am fond of, but I have done it to myself several times since I last checked in. I haven't had these kinds of full on binges for a long time, but it just seemed like all the wrong pieces were falling into place at all the wrong times.
A glimmer of hope came in a job interview that I have been hoping and trying for years to get. Sadly this also coincided with a nasty two day flare and thanks to my eating and lack of exercising, me ripping the seam on my favorite skirt because it is really too small for me right now. I have yet to hear back about the job and I found out this past weekend that they are cutting my hours at work. On top of everything I have yet another Dr. app. next week to try and get some things figured out, which, as you can imagine, I don't have the money to pursue even if I wanted to, sigh, I am not looking forwards to it. So right now I am hanging on by a sewing thread, trying to trust the Lord, and hoping desperately that everything stops spinning before I lose consciousness.
I did some reordering of my priorities recently, so I am trying to put more effort into eating better, counting calories, etc. Even if my exercising is still off for right now, I know that healthier eating will help regardless.
I have a bunch more to say, but I have to get ready for work. Life goes on. Right now I am just praying and holding on for dear life.
Sorry about the depressing nature of this blog, just needed to vent.